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To her

2011-10-29T15:19:00.002+08:00

I guess sometimes blogging does help. I can pour all my feelings out all at once. And i'm not afraid of hiding.

Sorry for my long absence, i don't see a need to blog as i deem it troublesome. But now i have to get some stuff off my chest. In this wonderful year of 2011, i've meet someone who i want to be serious with. Although the place i've met her is not exactly one that is where someone would actually find his/her soulmate, i guess i was lucky. I've knew her since end of march. As all my close friends would know, i've had a my own fair share of relationships, some serious some were kinda not and most kept from my parents. Now that i'm a bit older and understand relationships more, it's about time i stop "playing" and "settle down".

Ever since i knew her and everytime we went out, be it with her, mine, or our friends or just us alone, i've never felt so happy. As cheesy as this may sound, i just felt that the empty part of my life is filled. I've never felt this way so strongly ever before. She's the girl that i wouldn't mind telling all my friends about. She's the girl that i don't mind telling my family. She's the girl that i want to be with forever. I guess i'll never find another girl who's open, straightforward and so so matured and non-materialistic like every other singaporean girl nowadays.

My life has pretty much changed ever since. Now i prefer to go out with her and spend more time. Going anywhere and doing anything is fine as long as i'm with her. Sorry to all my friends out there if i'm "neglecting you", but i hope all of you understand. You will understand how i feel one day. I guess people might call this the honeymoon period.

The reason why i'm blogging again is because recently i kinda make her sad and disappointed. THis were pretty smooth sailing until this month. I guess i was getting too comfortable and being insensitive and oblivious to her feelings. As much as i need her, i forgot that she needs me too. Stupid NS and her uni have both restricted our freedom and time to meet up, so all we get are precious weekends further limited by NS and uni exams. I guess sometimes the way i say things kinda convey the wrong message to. Instead of saying: "i want to meet you" , saying: "i don't mind meeting you" gives the wrong message. I know this might sound silly, but she's at her low point now, and i was selfish and did not care for her thoughts. She really needs me last night but i ended up catching up with my NS friends and went clubbing. Yes yes, u can scold me, give the disapproving look and all. But we talked about this all the time, anyone of us can go clubbing with anyone as long we tell each other. We don't want to restrict one another. But the downside is, we tend to say: "go lah, nevermind, i'll see you tomorrow." But in fact we do want each other's company.

And the fact is, she really sacrificed alot for me. She blocked out her precious weekends for me and my family instead of going out with her friends and squeezed time out for me instead of studying for her exams. I fail to realise that. Hey, i don't hide it, i'll put it straightforward in your face: i was an insensitive bastard and fail to realise that behind her happy facade, the smiling face encouraging me every night with my limited 10 mins of phone call that everything is fine and that she's just tired, is actually a very lonely figure. Someone who is attached but felt like she's not getting enough care and love. Someone who gave so much but not receiving enough. Someone who"s really in need of me. And i wasn't there for her.

I guess it's not too bad that i'm tearing as i speak now. I actually do care for her. Now things have gone a bit cold and she's in school now, having lessons. We do have a family buffet later as it's my cousin's birthday. I felt happy that my aunt actually invited her and paid for all of us. But i wonder how it'll be like later. Would we be putting on our masks giving a show in front of everyone that we are still lovey-dovey? I wish it would be genuine. We want to put this behind us but hey, the scars are there already.

Enough apologising, I just want to say that this has got to stop. This relationship needs effort from both sides. This will serve as a reminder to myself that i'm getting too comfortable and i should start paying her more attention. I'm not gonna go clubbing with friends anymore unless she's going. Even though she always says she's ok with it, she's not.

So i'm gonna put it up to the public eye, as all my witnesses that i, Xavier Ong, will do what i promised here and to make my girlfriend, Peggy Tham, a happy girl once more.

Take care peeps :)

2010

2010-03-15T21:11:00.003+08:00

Yup, back this year to revive the blog. Been saying this too many times. Noticed that there are stalkers that view this occasionally. HA!

Right, i'm happy to make it to JC 2. However, i can honestly say that my foundations are weak. Extremely weak. I really need to brush up on everything. There has been too much gaps missing and too much time wasted. Guess i'll be one of those people struggling all the way till the end. Keep getting myself distracted. Argh, have to constantly chide myself.

Well, it's my SYF year for Drama. Have a minor role in it. It takes up quite a lot of my time. So yeah, have to plan my time now. March holidays are a luxury which i can't waste. So yeah, really gotta study! I just want to pass MBTs for now, scoring can wait till a later date. Walk before i run.

Gotta study, cheerios~

2010 soon

2009-12-31T02:58:00.000+08:00

Just in a few more hours it will be a new year. I could say the last 2 months of '09 have been an awesome one, making me forget about everything that's unpleasant. But still, one lingers on..

Yeap, my grandpa. I'm sitting in my room here, typing this at 2.33am. Parents are sleeping, and i can hear my grandpa coughing and groaning at times, the sound of him shifting in bed and the bed creaking. It's been great that relatives are turning up, concerned about my grandpa. Wouldn't say the same for my grandma but let's not bring THAT up.

Everyone's telling me to be strong. Of course, i am. I can still manage right now. The first "emo" post was just a sudden feeling. Right now, i'm here to update more, in case you are wondering. I've said last month that he might just pass on suddenly, but i believe the old man cannot bear to leave. He's still struggling on day to day. His diet? Porridge, just about 5 spoonfuls. Anything soft just few portions. And some days, he'll just eat breakfast and nothing else. He can't go to toilet frequently a month ago. Now he wears adult diapers which have to be changed by my parents or just me and my mum. He weighs 60+ kg in the past. Now he's 30+ kg. He cannot get up by himself, on his bed the whole day and often coughing out phlegm. What we are afraid of is him choking.

My grandpa, i believe, can bear tremendous amounts of pain. I believe that he's hurting like mad now, but he just keeps quiet. How could u have more than 5 growing tumours in your head, and some growing in your body, and not hurt at all? Right now if you enter his room, you will see a frail old man. You can see his ribs showing, you can see his hairless head, his skinny arms and legs. But what struck me each time i look at him is: THE EYES. The eyes wander about. I'm not sure what he's thinking. Sorry if it's dramatic, but i feel that he sees his life flashing past him. He's looking through his memories, feeling sad and do not want to let go at all. In a simple phrase: he can't bear to let go.

The closest family member to him, i think, must be his brother. He often calls my grandpa when he's healthy. Now, he make frequent trips to see him. He's my grandpa's elder brother. He's still quite fit though. He makes personal trips to see grandpa. Just recently, he entered my grandpa's room, and got a shock. He saw the state of my grandpa. The old man couldn't stand the sight before him and he cried. Not long after, there are 2 old men crying in there. My mum walked out because she couldn't bear to watch.

Right now all i could do for him is to move him about, feed him with water, wipe his spit and phlegm and staying up till wee hours in the morning just to make sure he's alright. I'm not so sure whether i can still help around when school starts. I'm not even sure whether he can make it till then.

Well, not exactly a great way to end 2009 and usher in 2010, but i'll manage. I would like to thank all you guys for the encouragement and support. Happy New Year in advance guys

With love and hope,

Xavier Ong 王善义

Grandfather

2009-11-11T15:20:00.000+08:00

Hey readers, if there are any...

Well, went to pitstop cafe with denny, yilu and clarissa to have some fun. It was really great. But didn't have the mood to talk about this now.

Well, my grandfather's condition is getting worse now, i don't know how much more it can get worse. He is not on any medication now and it's basically a matter of time before he... Ya, i can't even type out the word now. Well, yesterday, which is the 10th of nov, my mum noticed that he has been standing in the toilet in front of the toilet bowl for ages. Normally, he just returned to his bed after whatever business. But he has been standing there and shaking a little recently. So in the evening, my parents noticed that he has been in the toilet for quite some time with the doors closed. Dad told me to check it out. So i tried opening the door but it was locked. I called out to him and he answered, and unlocked the door. I opened it so as to checked whether everything was ok.

The moment the door opened, i saw him looking at me and there was a very shocked look on his face, and he starts stumbling backwards.

He began to fall back.

I rushed forwards to catch him and manage to hold his right arm. The impact was reduced and it was like he sat down on the floor slowly. My dad rushed forward and helped him up. I could hear him groaning. I could see some tears at the side of his eyes. My dad hugged him and told him it's ok. Parents helped him back to the bed. I went to my room and sat on my chair. I cried. It's a terrible feeling. It's uncontrollable. The image of his surprised/shocked face and him falling in front of me. What happens if i wasn't there to catch him? And i did not really hold him to prevent the falling. The images haunt me now. And every time he goes to the toilet, he does that standing thing over and over again. We have to help him back to his bed from the toilet, which is only 5 steps away. My dad have to help him on a wheelchair to get to the kitchen for dinner. He couldn't walk properly anymore. He was trembling badly whenever he walks or eats.

My dad pointed out that his legs and hands are swollen. He also appears to be in pain as he keeps stroking his nose and grimace in pain. I think that's because he has stopped taking all medication, as instructed by the doctors. Also, because of the 5 large tumours in his brain, it has grown and my dad thinks that it is pressing on to some nerves, affecting his movements. He believes that my grandfather wants to walk, but his limbs are not obeying, therefore, the strange standing in the toilet thingy happens.

I had difficulty sleeping. Any sounds from his room alerted me immediately, be it groaning or the sound of the toilet light switch clicking. How could i sleep after all these things?

I do not have the mood to do anything much right now. It affects me really badly and i don't want to be some emo guy which spreads the sadness around. That's just not me. I need some time. To anyone reading this, please cherish your love ones. You don;t know what you missed until it's gone. Cliche, but true.

ADVANCED!!!

2009-11-05T21:19:00.002+08:00

As promised, i'm gonna start blogging again when i made it to JC 2, so obviously: I'M A JC 2 KID NOW!!!!

29 November!!! *HINT HINT*

I'm going to start blogging nicely now, have to leave the silly writing techniques used in the past. I was cringing when i read my previous posts... OH GOSH. Well, life now is more or less relaxing without PW or Mother Tongue exams chewing my ass. I think i spent alot of money going out and stuff, and i really feel guilty :/ AHHHHHH!! I have to buy prom stuff already but my dear JC 2 friends this year are about to have their 'A' levels in a few days.

My hols would be packed with activities like OGL camp, SYC '09 and i'm going to have tuition classes to brush up on my horrible foundation of my Maths. SO far, this year have been an awesome year. At least the impact of being retained is much more cushioned. I'm not going to blog very often, only when i'm really bored or there are some things i have to get out of my chest.

My grandfather is about to die. He si still around in the house as usual. But he has cancer cells all over the body, radiotherapy and chemotherapy don't work anymore. His head is turning black and he eats lesser. It really hurts to see that. And it's not helping when SOME relatives rarely visit him? My parents really dedicated and sacrifice alot for the family. It's impossible to finish describing and i don't want to divulge too much about my family problems. Every family would have their own. But it really maddens me, and particularly my dad, about how NATO (No Action Talk Only) they are! And he could be really frustrated with work and coming home to all these nonsense is not really helping him. Sometimes he will complain loudly to my mum or over the phone to my uncle. Sometimes he cries. He feels really stressed and sad for my grandfather, To see your own father who is usually the masculine and manly guy with a heavy responsibility on his shoulders, break down and cry, how do you feel?

Enough of it. I had enough. Seriously, if anything big is going to happen at my grandfather's wake, it will not be only my dad doing the talking and arguing, i'll be at his side and speak up for him.

REGENERATION

2009-10-16T02:22:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking reviving this blog if i am promoted to JC2. If not, i'll delete it.

A new change in life

2009-06-04T00:44:00.001+08:00

YES I KNOW!

I've been really lazy and have absolutely nothing to blog. Wouldn't want to bore most people with the mundane life I have which could be summarized like this:

Wake up, shitzz, school, eat, home, shitzzz, sleep

Sorry to disappoint you all. All i can add here is that the drama public performance we had was really successful. My life is starting to become much enjoyable now, with the new friends and everything :)

No more emo blogging. Gonna change my blog and everything soon, with the help from someone.

hello, if you are reading this, thanks alot and looking forward to meet you soon :)

6th Student Council

2009-04-30T00:51:00.001+08:00

With P.R.I.D.E we serve, as one we lead

500 hundred 25 thousand 6 hundred minutes (1 year) have passed. I wouldn't say i've left council. I would say i left my 2nd family.

I might have said that i've moved on. Yes, i did, but nothing could stop me from thinking about council the last few days.

I've mentioned in my blog before, mentioned on Facebook's notes too, about all my feelings that day I was 'fired' from council. After Orientation, I couldn't continue being a councillor. It was devastating. I missed everyone. The badge not being worn already, no more duties in the morning, phone remaining silent from the absence of relays, no more late nights, no more proposals... It's quite hard to take it all of a sudden. I think the rest of the councillors are facing this now. This one year have been great. I enjoyed alot, suffered alot, learnt alot, laughed and cried alot.

Thank you 6th SC.

Brothers Association:
I thank all of you sincerely at the bottom of my heart. Thank you for spending all your time with me, laughing and joking together, and comforting me when i'm at the lowest point of my 17+ years old life. I couldn't express my feelings further. I spent most of my time in council with you guys, and we probably shared all our secrets already. A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.

Ex-co:
Edwin, even though i irritate you all the time, i was really really touched by your speech during invest. Makes me feel a little guilty, but that doesn't mean i'll stop disturbing you! Melissa, i think i've learnt the most from you. And you are the funniest person sometimes. Best moment was when i pranked you! Samantha, i think you saw my ugliest and weakest side on the 28/04/09. You were there to comfort me and cried with me. The silent warrior providing a never wavering support. Nina, the mother for councillors whose selflessness and boundless care she's unselfish with, supporting and encouraging others always. Kamal, my crazy counterpart who endures my snide remarks and teasings, and also my sometimes too painful punches. Your craziness/himbo-ness adds life and zest to council. THANK YOU EX-COs!!

SA:
To all my first i/cs, you guys are really the best people. You guys endure all the shitload of menial tasks and carrying on your responsibilities with all your heart. You guys really make me happy to have you guys as i/cs as i will never be worried about anything. You guys are the most efficient people, sometimes giving in more than you should. To the rest of the people, the support and hard work you guys made was not forgotten. I couldn't be so slack without the hard work you all guys put in. THANK YOU SA!

Teachers:
I've learnt alot from you guys! The support, encouragement and ideas you guys provide made my council time the most enriching one i've ever had! Thank you TAs!

The rest:
I've mentioned in my previous note before, i really do not know what else to say. But all you guys have been a part of me in one significant way or another. All you guys have endured my sarcasm and crazy personality and i thank all you guys for that! The support, encouragement and care you guys gave me will not be forgotten. The tears shed and the perspiration from the hard work we went through together will be etched deeply in my heart.

I admit, i might be one of the slackest ex-co, slackest council. I might have been the irresponsible one, for causing so much problems for TAs and council. It really affected everyone's mood, efficiency in events as there's not enough manpower and also bring some inconvenience. I'm erally sorry for doing so as i'm not responsible enough for my studies. For this, let me apologise:

SORRY 6th SC!

I'll be strong and stay committed to my studies. No more distractions. Hope we can still see and meet each other regularly, i really don't want the friendships to die off.
The six most important words: I admit I made a mistake. The five most important words: You did a good job. The four most important words: What is YOUR opinion? The three most important words: If you please. The two most important words: Thank You. The one most important word: We. The least important word: I.

Not what we give,
But what we share,
For the gift
without the giver
Is bare.

Meridian Junior College 6th Student Council
30 strong always

Turmoil

2009-04-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

Give me the strength to tide over this period of time...

Every day before sleeping is the worse time of the day...
I chide myself for being such a coward.
Why did this happen to me?
Was is a mistake...? Did I rush into things too fast?
Nobody's wrong, nothing happened, but what had gone wrong?
I wish I knew, I wish people knew and could help me.
Instead, I chose to remain silent, and suffocate under the painful truth...

The ticking time bomb....

Life now...

2009-03-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

Let the water flow naturally, wind blow gently, thoughts sprout easily and life pass easily...

Sorry for the late post again! I've finally changed my blogskin :)

Life has been much more normal now. Been reading my older posts and found it to be extremely disturbing, like i have split personalities. There's a main issue on my mind, i have a solution, but i'm afraid to do it...

Today is Meridian's holiday. Because our 'A' level graduates generally did well, school gave us a holiday! Actually, my class arranged for an outing at Marina Square's Seoul Garden, response wasn't that good initially with around 10 people? But today, only 4 including me was there. Everyone backed out for one reason/excuse or another. I cannot believe i spend $65 a day just like that! If you think i'm scary, Serinder is even worse. She buys stuff without thinking twice. Spotted. It's nice. Look at the price. Buy it. Fast and simple. I wanna have a card to so i can be like that, but i won't be as crazy. She spent alot today. Yee Loo was there too. The 3 of us were the main crazy people that joked from start to finsih. Super funny! Benjamin was there too. And after a few hours, Wan XIn and Wen joined us. But they left after awhile.

I don't really wanna talk about what we did. It was just shopping and eating. I didn't shop, the girls did. I spend $$ mostly on food and freaking New York New York membership. That one expensive lah! $30. Now regretting. Oh ya, arcade was damn fun!

I've been piled with homework and upcoming tests again! I hate it! Another year filled with work again! I wanna enjoy my holidays properly!

Thoughts down the meandering lane...

2009-02-24T11:54:00.002+08:00

i've been considering when to change my blogskin but once again, i've been lazy to do so...

anyways, it's encouraging to see people tagging my almost dead blog. currently in the school library now rotting. these days without council has been really weird for me. i tried to convince myself that i have moved on. however, i see councillors going about their duties and getting stressed over upcoming events, and i thought: was i like this before?

it's like losing something that has been a part of me for quite sometime. yes, it's annoying to stay till quite late in school, it's annoying to have conflicts, it's annoying to be home after a long tiring day and faced with never ending homework, and it's annoying to be annoyed by such stuffs. but what made me pushed all these aside are the other wonderful 29 people in council whom i worked hard with, sharing everyone's pain and joy. yesterday's meeting with the new batch of council nominees really made me feel extremely awkward. friends told me to stay and look at them, just join them. i told myself: is this what you really want? shouldn't you move on? it really is awkward when you are no longer part of the family and you are shamelessly trying to still be part of it. i should move on.

But I can't.

My parents are another part which stresses me everyday. from every minor things and everything has to be done in their way, be it a big or small matter. they nag and scold at every single possible chance and could never leave me alone at times. everything is so strict and rigid. it's suffocating. and what really annoys me is that they could be oh-so-sweet and good at times, pampering me with stuff. at other times, they could be extremely.........anal.

Lastly, my current relationship status. i believe my close friends do know about it. i'm really in a state of numbness. i feel lost and detached, distracted by other things too. i don't know what to do, and i'm extremely frustrated.

i hate this. i want to escape from all of this...

Longest thank you note ever...

2009-02-10T21:52:00.003+08:00

I know it’s been a long time but blogging seems to be a fad that has faded away from my life. I will now use it to post extremely significant things happening in my life. Currently, as most people know by now, I’m a retainee. There’s nothing shameful about that. Although it’s a sad thing, I would say it also gives one a chance to buck up in life. Enough said about that.

Being a retainee means that I’m not able to continue with my term in the council. Bluntly put, you can say I handed in my ‘resignation letter’ with my lousy report card or I was ‘fired’. What made it worse was that I held an executive committee (ex-co) position, Head of Students’ Affairs, which is vacant now. How do I feel? I feel sad, empty, guilty, and frustrated. Looks simple with words, but you have no idea how it feels for me. Everyday I go to school with a happy smile, bringing laughter to people and stuff. Hey, you know I’m an extremely cheerful person who’s always high and crazy. But when I’m alone and all quiet, I still get bothered by the fact that I’m retained. No, I won’t be emo, but it’s just that stupid feeling. Different class, different CCA, different lifestyle. I walked by friends from my batch with a different feeling. It’s weird; I feel that they are no longer as close to me. I can’t help it, it’s natural.

Being in council has definitely changed the way I view things, and how to look at things in a different perspective. Of the numerous events I’ve handled or helped to manage, I do not look at things by just thinking of the fun part. Sure, we have fun, but we must think of safety, logistics, wet weather, and all the so many ‘what-ifs’. I’ve learnt a lot and I’ve changed. People might think I’ve not done much or done things not seriously just because I appear to be mischievous and stuff all the time. But hey! I do my stuff seriously. Why must I be serious all the time when I can just be my jovial self, getting the work done nicely, and cheering people up along the way! Perhaps that’s why people noticed my absence from council, which is because of my noisy presence!

The last event I had with the council would be Orientation 2009. It was perfect for the OGMs. They loved it. For council, all I could say was that it was an enriching event that everyone would have learn a lot from it. For the council after everyone left, I didn’t expect the night to end in that particular manner. Some drama and loads of crying was all I can say. It sucks for the last night to be so unpleasantly shocking for me and Maisarah. We wouldn’t want our last day to be like that. I cried to. I admit. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. Yeah, if you are reading it anywhere (most probably in the school library showing off to a bunch of friends), I don’t give a hoot admitting. I was really attached to the council. The near 1 year of working with friends. Strong friendships were forged. ‘Brotherhood’ if I could put it that way. I had my close friends. But I can truthfully say I had interacted with every single one of the councillors. The feeling of leaving is so heart wrenching. One could never feel it unless you are in the same situation. The emptiness and pain made me tremble when I fought back my tears. A losing fight I would say. The little speeches by my friends at the last night moved everyone. But it was most impactful for me and Maisarah.

As I stood alone after Finale (Rock O.N) has ended, I see the new J1s leaving happily, laughing their way home and cheering with their friends. I stand behind a whiteboard alone. Looking at the paper with my new class allocation as the cool night breeze blew strong. Flashbacks of my term in council just happened without me realizing. Before I knew it, I saw some of my council friends tearing. I fought back the urge, but succumb to the feeling eventually. I cried uncontrollably. The feeling all too familiar as my grandmother’s death happened only last year. Perhaps not as painful, but the pain was somewhere near. Close friends tried to comfort me. The teachers too, they tried to show concern. But perhaps they don’t know what to say or do, that’s why they stay around and just look. I appreciate that.

To the ex-cos:
I really loved all the little time we had. Small meetings and the dinner we had. We were close and we never had any quarrels or disagreement between us. For that, I’m extremely happy and grateful. I always feel like I’m the little kid among the 6 of us, all of you so mature and smart. The ideas you guys shared were enriching to me. Edwin (a.k.a gay or Ogre), the authoritative grandfather whose words are the final verdict. Melissa, the perfectionist whose ideas never fail to let someone see things in a different perspective. Nina, the most hardworking ex-co which helped in every single event tirelessly. Samantha, the silent warrior whose like Nina but sometimes unnoticed by others. Thank you for putting up with me disturbing you about your small eyes constantly. Kamal, my counterpart which randomness and crazy ‘himbo’ suggestions make everyone laugh! Thank you ex-cos!

To SA:
My dear SA peeps! I only officially met you guys all together for once in my whole council term, which is at the start. You might have been wondering, why no more meetings? Why PA has so many meetings? Simple. SA gave me no problems. Blazer commitee, yes, you have your fair share of troubles. Fines not paid and blazers overdue. But I can say that Suan Kai and Suapanee handled the problems efficiently. IF it cannot be handled, it was settled by Mr Jeremy Wong. Of course, they had help from the rest of the committee namely: Afshan, Chee Kian and Theodora. Suan Kai, the king of logistics is one of the most hardworking in council. He could work tirelessly and is so selfless that he survives with only 3 to 4 hours of sleep per day. Supanee is exactly like him, that is why council always tease that they are a couple. Afshan, she tries to help as much but she has to leave early due to early closing time for her hostel and also to maintain good grades because of her scholarship. Theodora, another silent warrior. She is rarely seen in action by anyone. But working with her during my nominee period for soccer cheering, she is very hardworking, easy-going and tries her best in everything. They do not need their Head of Students’ Affairs (HOSA). Vending committee. No problems. Handled by, I daresay, the 2 most efficient girls in council: Shi Yeng and Ke Hui. Vending had no problems as they worked closely with their teacher mentor and vending in charge, Mr Own Tan. Shi yeng. This is a scary and amazing wonder woman. She could handle all council work, take H3 maths, and is part of the Talen Management programme of our school. Kudos to her, what more do I have to say? Ke hui, the mountain tortoise of council. I think she have learnt a lot from the brothers association. She is still very hardworking, but more cheerful and talkative than before. They never need their HOSA too. Morning assembly commitee. Atiqah, Chen Peng, Gladys. Perhaps I’m more of knowledge of what’s going on in this particular committee. But these 3 i/cs have been dealing with their guilt of collecting fines from fellow councillors the whole year. They feel frustrated when people come late and stuff. But kudos to them for managing their duties well with seldom glitches and the ‘surprise’ they plan to give the council. Atiqah, always teased by me, she is one of the few people who laughs really hard at my jokes and funny comments. We share lots of stuff together too, and is extremely fun to work with. Oh yeah, especially during Chingay where I helped her spot a cute Japanese boy. A die heart Jonas Brothers fan that defends them selflessly. Chen Peng, the boy boy of council whose extremely loud burps at unexpected times brings groans and laughter. It’s something that one could never get use to. Extremely hardworking and sentimental guy. Gladys, super glam, super whiny and aspires to be a Tai-Tai. Yes, she’s on her way there already. Just need a super rich husband in future *hint hint*. Her sometimes funny “bimbo” comments and complains would be missed. They too, do not need their HOSA. Lastly, locker committee. Bin Li and Yi Hui. They might not handle the most prominent duties, but they have quite a tedious work. They have to promote lockers rental, clean EVERY SINGLE locker and to keep checks on them. Oh, and cutting metal locks with the huge metal cutter isn’t an easy feat for 2 girls. The girls are managing fine. Bin Li, hardworking girl with more than enough pressure from home and studies. I share a lot of her problems too. But she is a very nice person to work with and could withstand all sorts of things people say to tease her. Yi Hui, the general consensus is that she is a bimbo. She being a vegetarian is always teased by us too. But only joking, nothing against her or vegetarians. Relax. Very emotional, sentimental and easy to make her laugh. She’s a very thoughtful person too. They too, could do without their HOSA. What more do I need to say to these fabulous people?

To Brothers Association:
Let start with The Coolies. Chee Kian, the most uncouth and ah beng person in council. The only person which I could seriously talk to as my normal self and the person who’s almost exactly like me. BUT HEY! He’s a changed man now. =X Not supposed to say why but he’s changed for the better. With him and me together, everywhere we go, it’s definitely noisy. Our R21 jokes of almost anything and everything would definitely frustrate people, putting them in a spot whether to laugh or to be angry. Not to forget our frequent use of hokkien! Wei sheng the polar bear. Never met anyone with such a fond craving for ice cream. A single cone a day is a must! His small eyes and funny laughter is a must by my side. Working with him has never been more enjoyable. Yong Jie. No matter what people say about you, I still think that you have a good heart. Your mouth is perhaps your only flaw as you tend to offend people unknowingly. Yes, always the object of being ridiculed as bring ‘slow’ and ‘Pentium 1’, The Coolies would be different without you. The late nights of duties and sharing cabs would never be forgotten. Now, the Jiao-ness Brothers. Bi xuan (a.k.a xiao bi-er or bibi or ah boy). My earliest working partner in council. My number 1 shopping partner! There’s nothing we cannot crap about. Even though she’s a girl (yes, SHE IS!), I always find it comfortable to talk to her and we share lots of stuff together (even though she shared once unconsciously). She is one of the coolest and awesome girls I know of. Dancing and laughing together, that’s what I would miss the most. Hui xin! Always fragile and injury prone. But hey, that’s to tease her only. But hey, she is another person who confides in me most of the time. We have hang out time to time and I would always find time to tease her in events by tugging her sleeve and poking her arm. My dance partner for couple dance too. Must always remember to go slow and easy during washing machine part of couple dance! And yes, without her, all events with AV could never be successful. Nah, just joking!

To Dance Committee:
We are from council but the dance committee of council just to get this clear. Maisarah, the first i/c. Yep, same fate as me, only person who could totally understand me. Extremely hardworking although could be late sometimes for events! She and Bi Xuan the 2^nd i/c are so hardworking that they would dance until they are too tired. I remember during OGL camp, they did that just to perfect couple dance. Respect. Just this word is enough said. Daryl. My fellow mentee. Daryl is another silent warrior. At first, you thought he’s the typical uncouth and arrogant VS boys. But his heart of gold takes time to discover. He is perhaps one of the most unnoticed hardworking chap of the council. He does things which are considered ‘backstage’. He never likes the limelight and even though he is sick frequently, he never backs down and always shows concern to other councillors. Even though a little too straight forward at times, he means well to that person. Loretta, the little girl. Always tease her in council but never get to work much with her. Her hard work might go unnoticed but she delivers the results and impresses people. Good lucky for friendship day, it’ll be a success I’m sure! Oh yeah, she’s not a bisexual, I always tease her by calling her that! It’s a girls’ school thing, right?

To the others:
Hakim, this dude here can withstand any racist comments thrown at him and it’s worth saluting him. Sorry for not being your second i/c for CTC and all the countless teasing. I hope that it’ll be a success! Ishleen, I remember working with you during nominee period. I always disturb your tagline: Smells like sheen spirit! Always with Afshan and with the same situation as her, you 2 are extremely smart and hardworking people. All the best in future! Amalina, the cool wrapper in MJC! The funniest girl which can entertain herself, and is one of the few girls who can really make me laugh. Although sickly, she tries her best to commit to council and put in her best. As you can see, Finale (Rock O.N.) was a success! Kudos to Ama!! Shannon, always the main centre of my unmerciful teasing. Perhaps one of the worst victims. But yes, just want to say a big thank you for withstanding all those nonsense and thank you for anything everything! Samuel, please do not think that you will be forgotten! No matter what people say and what people do, I still believe that you have put in your all for council. People might not like to work with you, perhaps of certain issues. Sometimes, you should slow down your thoughts and feelings, and listen more to others. In that way, you could work with others more pleasantly. Also, don’t always apologise before anything starts. It’s not your fault for being who you are. You could perhaps be not as good as others in dancing, but you could always ‘repay’ by helping in other ways.

To the TAs:
Miss June Tan, you are like THE mother to all councillors. I think your bunch of ‘kids’ have certainly given you loads of trouble and vexed you. But always remember we do appreciate whatever you have done for us and we will never forget that. Mr Robin Hon, although scary at first impression, you appear to be exactly the opposite in actual fact (except when you are hungry, angry, tired, or all rolled into one!). Others might say you did little for council. I think that your hard work would be negotiating events with the school admin and to fight for the council. You step in when council has gone ‘off-track’ in whatever we are doing or when there’s unruly behaviour. Who says you’ve done nothing? Mr Jeremy Wong. I think I feel the closest to you than any other TAs. Perhaps it’s because you interact with us in a more informal way. Joking and disturbing councillors are certainly quite similar to what Chee kian and I always do. Even though you are the “supervisor”, your concern for blazer committee and logistics in events ensure that nothing could go wrong. Miss Karen Ng. When I first heard you speak, I thought: her English is powerful. So COOL. But after knowing you, I think that you always expect the best from councillors, which is a good thing. You push the boundaries with your creative ideas and in a way push us to take up the challenge. I think the council, especially the Prom Comm, really appreciates what you have done. Mr Owen Tan. Since Event 1 during nominee period, you gave me an impression of how council life is going to be like. It had prepared me to be in council as I knew that things would be different. You have also always made me think of stuff in different perspectives. Things that we councillors would miss out, you would definitely point it out to us. In that way, I’ve learnt much from you in council. Miss Samantha Wong. I had very little chance working with you, except during morning assembly. But I know you have done lots in other events too, only that I know very little of. But whatever mistakes of errors I’ve done as a Parade Commander (PC), you would definitely give me feedback for improvement. I’m grateful and thankful for that. Lastly, Miss Serene Wu. I knew very little of you. In fact, I knew you even before you joined council. You were my math teacher. I remembered sitting in front of you and you spoke very loudly in our small classroom. Apart from that, I regret not being able to work with you in council. I think you are a very fun teacher to work with as I’m quite cheeky sometimes when talking to you. Thank You TAs!!!

Yes, a very long thank you post. Tomorrow is another school day. Another school day with my new classmates. Very fun people but takes time to know them. A pity I didn’t join them as an OG during Orientation. With that, I would like to end of the blog something along the lines as Ama had at her blog: Council, forever and always 30 strong.

2009

2009-01-12T01:15:00.001+08:00

Hey guys. Sorry for long absence!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Well, actually decided to shut this blog. Have lots to say, but either i'm lazy or that the topics are similar. Parents and emotions and stuff. Hope i can get over this barrier. Took this from my friend's blog. Enjoy =)

Customer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?

Customer: I can do that. I’m not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?

Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma’am?

Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?

Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma’am?

Customer: Let me see….I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.

Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma’am?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I’m done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?

Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops…I have an error message already. What should I do?

Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?

Customer: It says “ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS”. What does that mean?

Customer Service Rep: Don’t worry ma’am, that’s a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to “LOVE” your own machine before It can “LOVE”others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called “SELF-ACCEPTANCE”?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.

Customer Service Rep: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the “MYHEART” directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, EALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!

Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go…

Customer: Yes?

Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

A fresh beginning....

2008-11-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

HEY!

Yes, I've read all the tags in my blog. I feel really happy and comforted by all you guys! Really, thanks a lot, it's very much appreciated. =D I think I've gotten over it more or less. Accept when I'm all alone, my mind starts to wander, and I'll push those thoughts away. Gotta be strong now. And I'll be playing Ming Rong (Mong) and Fazall's role next year. I'll encourage those who retain. Hopefully, none will but if there is, i'll help.

Well, it's the holidays again! Technically, not for me as I have council and an external camp to deal with. However, I'm pretty much hyped up for all the events coming up! And holidays mean that i can procrastinate and not study without feeling guilty. LOL!

I've just bought a pair of Brazillano Pria flip flops, 3 Espirite shirts and a new MYUK wallet! I think you guys would know if you added me on facebook and MSN! Well, I did not buy those items, but my mum did! HAHA! I do not have that much money ok! Anyway, it was all out of the blue. After a week and 4 days of consecutive council work, i've finally got a free day for my mum. She took me to Fish&CO. and after eating, she was like: "You need a new wallet or not? Yours getting old already." I jumped on the opportunity and said: well, see got any nice ones first lo.."
I was jumping for joy in my heart. LOL. And after that, we walked passed Espirit and I got mysself 3 shirts on sale. Pushing my luck, i went with her to get my flip-flops and i'm loving it right now! WOOTS! Not bad for a day's outing eh?

Next day, i finally got a chance to go out with my girlfriend. Watch Beverley Hills Chihuahua. Not bad, kinda hilarious. After nearly 2 months not seeing her AT ALL, i feel so much happier now. OK! Enough said! haha!

SYC (Sunburst Youth Camp) is approaching! That's the external camp i'm attending. It'll be from 7th Dec to the 13th. I'll be unavailable then. The camp is so freaking cool. You get to meet overseas smart students from ASEAN countries + Kazahkstan + China + India. AWESOME! Can't wait for it! Besides, you get to meet all the different students from various colleges in Singapore. I've met so many cool and funny people. And we have this performance night and we were suppose to dance. The instructor was great and hilarious! And the dance moves were quite easy to learn. Together with the people around, everything was soooo fun!

Ah well, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON!!!! Yes, it's a hint for you to haul your lazy asses from anywhere and scramble to buy me a present! I'm not telling you to buy me a new iPod Nano or Levi's Jeans or Sony Vaio or give me more cash. But you could give me some cards, cakes, hang out with me, wish me happy birthday and at least drop me an SMS. LOLS. Eh! I'm a retainee and I need to be happy or i'll break down you know! LOL. Totally random. WTF? Must be too tired today. Gosh, it's 1.36 am.

Council stuff tomorrow, never ending stuff. I'm tired. BYE!

Retaining

2008-10-30T00:43:00.002+08:00

Hey, wassup readers, it has been a long time. Sorry but I’ve been occupied by lots of PW stuff and also council. Well, other than that, I’ve been trying to sort out my feelings. I do not want to reveal much here but I guess close friends should know what I’m referring to ya?

So painful. It hurts. I hate myself for getting into this situation. It makes me feel that I’m…irresponsible. I’ve not put in enough hard word for the first part of the year. And last minute studying didn’t help either. Obviously, the fault lies with me. If only I started work earlier. If only I did not focus too much on council. If only I did not play too much. If If If. Well, too late. The pain I feel is partially because of the time wastage, but mostly it’s due to my CCA and my friends. I feel alone, cast aside and soon forgotten. How long will everything this year lasts? Encouraging words are given, but will the sympathy die off soon when everyone gets back to their busier lives next year? I will not be able to join them for many things. I regret that and it’s too bloody late.

It’s not easy to accept it. You do not even have the chance to fight for it. You do not even understand or know how to fight against it and how your fate is decided. Hell, this situation is one good insight to the society in future. Acceptance is never easy. Moving on is a must and I hope to get over my sadness soon. It is really hard. I go to school each day with increasingly weariness. School kind of lost its appeal already. Just like that, my perception changed in a day. Go to school light heartedly, have laughs and jokes every where. Until someone mentions about the next year or something to do about results, my heart turns cold and my smile feels strained. All I could do is walk away or change the topic. Are my laughs and jokes a way to escape from reality and deceive myself? Is it the so-called ‘politically correct’ way to be emo and not smile at all? So confused. So frustrating. So painful.

My parents understand my situation. They’ve given me their support. But I can’t help feeling their sadness. I could see it and sense it, no matter how hard to cover up. I look at their aged faces. How much more disappointment could they take? I’m no longer a young boy. I lived my life without major setbacks and had an easy life so far. I’ve spoke about changing but I’m back to square one. Can anyone help? A desperate plea with no solutions to it.

The guilt, the shame and the pain. The struggle, the torment and the cover up. How long will it last? How could it help? How much could I take it any longer?

It has been a rough year.

My tear glands have been working a lot this year…

My Return

2008-10-02T01:25:00.002+08:00

Yup, that's right. I back into the blogosphere again! Been too busy too update my blog. Actually, i've many things to say but they have been forgotten already. So much had passed, and i do not want to say it all out again. My life these few months have been kinda like a rollercoaster ride. No, i'm not turning emo and i know it sounds cliche. BUT, it is true lah.

I've been busy with council stuf mostly. Council really takes up alot of my time. I felt that it was much worse than it was in secondary school. Back then, i could still go out with friends and chill out. Now, i did not go out with them for months. My secondary school friends have been contacting me time to time, but i've always have stuff to do. Feel really bad about it, hope you guys understand, sorry mates. Council is really my life now. Everyday, there's something to do with it. Constantly thinking of: "What's next?" If i were to sit down and relax awhile, the to-do list of my day starts to flash before my eyes. Shit. I hate it man. But the thing about council is that the people you work with makes all the sai-gang (shit work, literal translation from hokkien) sooooo much more tolerable and fun. Time seems to fly by when you work with these people. However, the current event would be the J1 bash of my school. It's like a mass party for the J1 cohort in my school. It's for us to chill out, let our hair down (sorry botaks) and have fun! Yeah, but we have sooo much problems with coming up the location. Sensitive topic, yes, I should not put it down. All I can say is that where the bash is to be held, is seriously after much difficulties that we have to do it there. Do not get too upset, for all you know it might be a blast (yeah right). So yes, the fun thing about council. As those who know me quite well, (10 minutes will do) you all must know i'm somewhat of a joker *ahem* and i fool around alot. This makes work much more fun innit? HAHA! I probably shouldn't mention that we tease Edwin, calling him an ogre from beastclub (bizclub, geddit? =.=). I shouldn't mention about the scandals involving the various councillors. I probably shouldn't mention about how we messed up the room almost all the time. I probably shouldn't mention that we ate food and drinks and didn't dispose them properly, hence the "occasional" sightings of ants and yes, even cockroaches. XD

Can't believe i'm actually blogging at 1.00am in the morning. Around 6 hours late i'll be in school. ARGH! Just when it feels like it's already holiday period. Exams are finally over, but the gloom hangs around. There's still 'A' level mother tongue examination, Project Work Oral Presention (DO NOT think dirty) and many council events. Great. This sucks man! I've more work load now after exams and i'm used to the late nights, playing my computer and getting screamed at by my mum to go to sleep. These few days would be the preparation for the open house this coming friday. Hope it'll really be a blast! Come on lah, mjc really not mugger school. I chop chop gurantee that every JC mugs the hell out for their exams. Sheesh. Come on down for open house and we'll show you how fun it is! Oh yea, next year's orientation might be 4 days. Hee hee.

Oh boy, i'm tired already. Wish i could think of more stuff to write, but i'm dog-tired now and don't want to rish getting yelled by my mum. Tata. =D

Hectic week

2008-07-25T00:51:00.002+08:00

This week has been the most hectic week for me. I have lots of homework to do and council things to manage. Everyday reach home at about 9pm.

Alright, first things first, floorball cheering.

The councillors went down to Tampines Sports Complex to cheer for the Meridian floorball teams yesterday. For the girls, it is MJC V.S. YJC. YJC has more supporters than us and their cheers were really loud. The problem for us is that we have lesser councillors to cheer and that the supporters did not cheer with us. But its ok, the girls won YJC, which have put up a really great fight, and took the championship title =D. BUT! For the guys, I really felt angry and disappointed. The boys match was between MJC and RJC. I felt that the match was somehow unfair, especially the referees’ judgement. There was a point where a penalty was given but later it was cancelled. If the penalty was taken, there might be a chance for MJC to draw with RJC, and might even win later. MJC was losing 2-0 at that point of time. There was little time left. RJC boys played really rough and there were quite a few injuries. However, once again, I felt that the referees did not do much about it and always give RJC free shots. What I’m most unhappy is when a MJC player and RJC player was challenging for the ball, they went pass MJC supporters. I think the supporters jeered a little. But the shocking thing was that the insolent bastard turned around and said: “f*** you” in front of us! That really made a lot of people angry. I mean, hello? What school you from? Suppose to be more civilised right? Ok, maybe a little prejudicial but even so, you should not even do that at all! Ass, hope karma/retribution befalls on you! In the end, we lost the championship title to them with the score of 2-1.

Next, it’s the SDS for today. Hmm, how do I put it? It isn’t really fruitful but there were some nice contributions and suggestions. Very little time for it, around 25 minutes only. Many jokers but it’s expected. HAHA. Anyway, today, a Japanese band which came from Japan (where else? DUH!) to MJC and gave us a performance. They came to MJC 2 years ago and now they are back again. They gave a preview during the morning and tickets were sold for the performance at night. If I’m not wrong, the tickets were sold around $10. The performance tonight was definitely worth more than that! The band was really great! Totally blown away by them. Their skills and everything, and not forgetting their choreograph. Marvellous.

Lastly, I would like to think about what I said previously about my emo post. I find it really hard to be another person. Yes, I’ve cut down my teasing and stuff, I became more serious with work. But, people don’t like me when I’m too serious. And when I started to play and tease, complain again. This time complain at blog. I mean, like you never tease people before? I don’t mind if you say it to me that you don’t like it lah, but by putting it in this way, I find it really offensive. Shall not elaborate. The human nature is ever changing and complex. One can never fully understand it. Shit, I hate my life now.

Reflection

2008-07-17T19:50:00.003+08:00

My Reflection

I find it really a nuisance starting every post now with an apology. It starts to get irritating and I don’t like that feeling. Yes, this disgusting feeling have a nasty habit of hanging around and it comes more often to me now. What am I talking about? It is about almost everything in my life. Firstly, it’s about my studies. T-T

I did really badly for my mid-year exams. No, do not say that it’s normal and everything. Yes, it is commonly seen but there should not be an excuse to cover it up or not feel anxious at all. Four U grades, one D and one B. That’s how bad my results are. And the four subjects which I failed are my main subjects, the 3 H2s and 1 H1. I only passed my languages. The fault lies with no one but me. I screwed up my exams because I have council work to do, I did not manage my time well and did not put in much effort into studying. And now, I have the parents meet teachers thingy. Seriously, I find myself playing too much at the starting of the year, from orientation until now. Yes, it sounds ridiculous but it’s true. I fool around, crap too much, landed myself into an ex-co position and now screw up my life in JC. I know my potential. I know how good I can be. But I did not do anything much about my studies and for council. I wish I could stop it. This stupid personality of mine is seriously affecting me. I do not one to be so crazy and be an irritating ass which piss people off all the time and cracking too much jokes. Yes, it’s good to be like that once in awhile. But after a long while, people don’t trust you even if you have the capability. People doubt you. I will put a stop to it. I have to be more serious in my life now. I’m god damn 17, behaving like a freaking 14 year old. THIS GOT TO STOP!

Council…. Where to start? At the beginning, everything was fine. Good time with friends and play around all the time. But when work starts to come and I got an ex-co position, I did not stop being the irritating joker. I find myself digressing. I’m not like how I was when I’m in sec 3 and 4. There is time for playing and being serious. Half the time, I do not know what I’m doing and find myself rushing things at the last minute. Now, I do not know what my committees are doing so far, how well they are doing and I practically didn’t give a hoot about their situation. Even as I/C or ex-co I/C, I admit I did not give in my all. Simply put, I had too much fun, fooled around most of the time while people are serious about it. Also during this period of time, from nominee period to now, I would like to apologise to all whom I’ve treated unfairly, cruelly, badly and whom I pissed off and hurt deeply. My deep, sincere, and truthful apology: Sorry. I promise to participate in everything more seriously from now on.

Yesterday, I got myself scolded extremely badly by my parents. I would have done so if I have a son like myself. I have seriously hurt and disappoint them. During the holidays, I had so much fun that I concentrated little on my studies. I played my computer games too much. I spent around 2 to 4 hours playing. After that when it comes to studying, I get distracted and ended up studying little and for a short period of time, say, one hour. And I got tired after playing computer games and I fell asleep. My mum was nagging away most of the time. My dad trusted me. He told my mum that I knew what I was doing and not to nag or scold me too much. He said that I’ve grown up already and definitely knew how to arrange my stuff. In the end? With such results, there’s little left for imagination. My mum was her usual angry self and chided me continuously. Chided might have been an understatement. But what hurt me really bad, what made me woke up was my dad’s angry outburst, He practically shouted at me. He was so angry that his voice shook a little. He was really upset and disappointed. He placed so much trust in me, expecting some decent results. But it ended up like that. My parents are extremely worried. I’m the only son. All their hopes are placed on me. I cannot and must not fail. I have to do them proud. They are really afraid of me getting retained.

I went back to secondary school today to get back my testimonial. It’s called a School Graduation Certificate (SGC). Very nicely done. I look and see what’s inside. I see my hard work and all I’ve put in. It makes me feel even more guilty. I went back with a group of my friends. All of them did better than me. Definitely, like DUH. Felt really really bad.

I have to change. I will change. Please. Give me some more time. I’m doing my best. These few days would be the transition period. I would not be the same as before…

Change….

2008-07-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

YES YES! I GET IT! BLOG BLOG! Sheesh >_>

Lazy can? Seriously lah, MJC right? Mugger Junior College right?
*crowd jeering*
FINE! Meridian...

SO, firstly is Mid-year exams. IT'S FINALLY OVER! Like, oh-my-god-the-freaking-difficult-causing-much-depression MYE is over! TO me, it sucks. Seriously man, one whole month of holiday, not much people will study right? HELLO!?! H-O-L-I-D-A-Y is:

1. A day free from work that one may spend at leisure, especially a day on which custom or the law dictates a halting of general business activity to commemorate or celebrate a particular event.

2. A religious feast day; a holy day.

3. Chiefly British A vacation. Often used in the phrase on holiday.

From the freedictionary.com. Yes, i did enjoy my first few weeks. Then the stress kicks in and i'm thinking: Aiya, study tomorrow. Procrastinate, yes, i'm good at it. And in the end i did not study much and keep getting scolded and nagged by parents. I hate it but i know deep down that i deserve it. AH well, fu shui nan shou, thrown away water hard to get back. LOL. I think i kinda flunk my MYE, and could be getting a lecture or scolding from my council teacher. I shall act cute a bit: =(

So yea, LTC coming soon. Will be from this coming sat to mon. Yes, those gits ate our youth day. Teacher say will be returning school around 3+ in the afternoon. $%%@%@ And guess where's the camp site? OH WOW! Camp pristine or something like that! OH PRETTY! It's just right next to freaking oh-i'm-so-clean serimbun (however you spell it -.-) camp. Like i have not enough "lovely experiences" there during sec 3. Lovely mud-bath, nicely scented and 5-star toilets and bathing rooms, and a beautiful natural air-conditioned "multi-purpose hall". Oh ya, and a camp-fire area. In case you could not detect my sarcasm, you suck at literature. HAHA. Should be fun since we are divided into groups. My group? Not bad, a few jokers and all. LTC is leadership training camp and is for all leaders in my school. From class chairperson to CCA chairperson and house committee members. Lots of people, should be great fun. Hope i won't get a gay oh-look-at-me-i'm-in-the-barney-family-purple-coloured shirt. Yea, that's wad happened to me in sec 3. *roll-eyes*

Hmm, when was it that we celebrated edwin's birthday? Should be on last sat. Ya, it is. So after the LTC camp briefing, which was like day 1 of the camp, we went to tampines mall fish&co. for dinner. around 15 of us. As usual, lots of noise at the already noisy place. We just contributed more X). And i told maisarah to buy a lovely ice cream cake. After eating we ate the cake. But hey! Being the cheeky me, i decided to play a prank on our lovely council president. I told weisheng to smash weisheng's face with the cake. Don't get it? Edwin's chinese name is weisheng, and we have a person also called weisheng without a English name. Yes yes, this is the part where you go: WAH LAU EH! LAME LEH! Moving on, the cake was cold and hard, so weisheng did not really smash it on edwin's face. Edwin's cake did get some extra flavour from his oily face though. Yes, he ate it. (go ahead girls say: ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww).

What else? Oh ya. Don't think I don't know who's been playing the game at my blog arh. *read with grandfather's tone* You people ah, study hor, dun keep play play leh, later hor, mummy daddy will scold scold de ok? Seriously lah, go some games website play lah, catch apple and snow flake very fun meh?!? IF wan play can, one condition. No you asses, not pay lah! Just tag lah, and tell me your score, see can beat my personal record or not! HAHA! Believe me, it's shocking. =D

Oh right, today should be the most tiring day BUT interesting one too. We changed GP and Econs teacher. Oh i tell you man, they were great. No comments for the previous ones, might be checked or some of you shitbags start blabbling to the school. They really very entertaining. Don't think i'll sleep in their class. HAHA!

Oh right right, lastly... Went to singapore flyer with my girlfriend for our one year anniversary. Shall not say anymore and leave you guys jealous. WAHAHA!

Well, I think that's all. Ciaos~

Laziness is a SIN

2008-06-10T15:10:00.002+08:00

HEY!

Oh man, been so long since i blogged! I really need to schedule my life man. I've been very very very very very lazy. I procrastinate alot ALOT! I do want to get up and do my stuff, but i just cannot seem to concentrate and get myself to do stuff! I only want to play and have fun all the time. Seriously, this isn't the right time to do it. Even though it's the holidays, I do have mid-year examintaions coming up and I really really need to study! I have been failing all my tests and assignments except for getting an 'A' for chinese. Shit. I really think the subjects I take in secondary school screw up my life. And that can be blamed on me and the school. Because of failing maths, i have to go to some class with lousy subject combinations. English, E. Maths, Food & Nutrition. Combine Sciences (Physics & Chemistry), Chinese, Combine Humanities (Elective Geography & Social Studies), and Principle of Accounts.

I basically screw up POA due to the constant changing of teachers. I gave up on the subject although it's easy to get an 'A' for that. Hey, i just realise my subjects are more suitable for admission to poly! SHIT. F&N i use to like it but kinda screwed up for the 'O' levels. In the end, i got A1 for science and humanities, A2 for chinese, english, maths, B3 for my F&N and C5 for my POA. Not bad, so i can get into the college i like. I look at my subjects, no A. Maths and pure science. SO i chose to go to arts stream. No A. Maths so i have to go to the only class with this subject combination: H2 - Geog, Literature, Econs. H1 - Maths. Suck, i know. And all this subjects i never have any background at all! SO i feel totally shitty right now. It's already the 10th of June but i have not touch my notes at all. Been basically wasting my time away and getting nagged AND scolded by my parents. GREAT! This life of mine is at the worse point now. It's basically worse than how i felt during the 'O' levels period.

Now, i have to psycho myself to study study study. I sit down, open my notes, read a few lines and my mind starts to wander. And friends have been calling me to go out all the time. Can i resist? I have to, i know. My friends have been taking great subject combinations, obtaining average results while I can only look and smile sadly. I go around all the time joking and pulling pranks at people, perhaps just to hide my sadness or to suppress my guilt. I REALLY REALLY HATE THIS GODDAMN DISGUSTING FEELING! I just hope i don't drive a lorry someday knocking everyone in the street and take a knife and start stabbing people. LOL. Hey, people do lose their senses under pressure. That guy from Japan really lose it. I'm not acting emo here but this is really how i feel now. This really genuine and pure feeling. And no, don't come and tell me: "aiyah, mye fail is normal one lah... mye only mah, jc fail den fail lorrrr, nth wan lahhh.". BULLSHIT. Don't further delude me.

I probably gonna do my e-learning now. I have not touch it at all and it's like the end of the holidays soon. I hate e-learning. I don't think i learnt at all. And here i am procrastinating again. BLOGGING. I want to study, but i'm using the com which has some games. I'll be distracted. And there's the internet, no don't think dirty, which i can go youtube and play games. And MSN, keep wanting to chat. On top of that, there's a freaking stench there's around here. I stay at the 10th storey and the stench can still be detected. SOme freaking road works. SHIT. No more mood for anything lah!

Professor !XO. LOL

Explanation

2008-05-11T13:44:00.002+08:00

Hey readers.

Knowing that there are people still bothering to read is quite reassuring. The fact that i appear to be different in real life might seem unbelievable. Perhaps i can only reveal how i really feel in my blog. Yes, correct, the last post was how i feel. The freaking irritating feeling that can only be suppressed by my time in council. Go ahead, roll your eyes and all. But that is the only one thing i can enjoy now. I don't mind staying till late at night to do council work. It is with friends that i can feel happy. Councillors to be particular. I feel really tired after everything but the process was worthwhile. Especially yesterday where most of us were in school cleaning the godforsaken storeroom and extremely filthy councillor room (thank you number 5s =X ). The room now is much more habitable and twice as clean. Good job everyone! (no need to do the cheer). Oh ya, forget to mention that Sandeep saved us from mercury spilled from a broken thermometer. Saved me from someone who keep exclaiming he's about to die too. HAHA! I kinda slack yesterday, but not to the extreme. Heh heh.

I would also want to thank the blazer committee for their hard work, selfless attitude and for sacrificing their time. Thank you Suan Kai, Supanee (a.k.a suprata, supranee, supernani), afshan, theodora, and chee kian. Also thank you all councillors who have helped them out when they are busy, especially on firday where we are still having pre-u seminar briefings.

Right now, i have lots of work to catch up. I really need to sort my life out. I know i should study, but i don't feel like doing so. I always procrastinate. I should be doing homework but i'm blogging. Perhaps the reason i'm so irritating, mischievous, happy-go-lucky, noisy, etc. etc. is because i want to hide my guilt, my sorrow and whatever shitty feeling i have right now. I don't want people around me to feel it. Also, i hate this feelings, it sucks. I want a time out, sort out my inner-self before i'm ready again. However, time and tide waits for no man (or woman), i do not have the luxury to do that. Haha, not to mention that people find it unbelievable that i have a girlfriend. I do behave differently and i can do that just so you know. I'm not always jovial and carefree Xavier. JC life is taking its toll on me, but i know i have to carry on, no matter what.

Until next time, bye..

2008-05-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

I'm
So
Sick
Of
School
Work.

That's it man. It's really very tiring. Rushing to complete tutorials in time. And tests too. I do regret coming to a JC. Just a little. I find myself struggling with all my school work. All my subjects i've not taken them before. Economics needless to say right? Literature. I don't take that freaking subject. And now you expect me to know everything and jump to the tertiary education standard. No can-do boss. My essays (some done last mintue) are averaging a 9/25. How sad? Geography. At least i've done elective geog. But now is built on core geog. I'm totally lost sometimes.I feel very discouraged because i do not know most of the physical geog stuff which most of my classmates knew already. Maths. Although a H1 subject, it builds on a maths in sec sch. And all thanks to my lovely sec sch which screwed up my future, and that it decided to change way sec 2 students are sorted out with their subjects this year? Shit. I hate this man.
And GP is totally different from english in sec sch. Hell, it's not easy. My english not very strong in the first place. I can only feel comfortable in Mother Tongue lessons which most people scoff at. Adding on, my procrastinating attitude is not helping either. On top of that, I just got into council and i'm an ex-co member. So it adds on to my work load. I really need to sort myself out mentally.

Enough of all the emo shit. During GP today we watched Roystan Tan's short movie clip, 15. Nice video, got everyone's attention. And actually everyday is almost the same lah. Lessons drag till evening, councillor stuff, get home at around 8+. Sick of this. And to think i complain in sec sch. Pfft.

I'M IN COUNCIL!!

2008-04-30T01:44:00.002+08:00

YEAH PEOPLE!!!
LONG TIME NO SEE!! WOOOOOOOOOO~
*Ahem ahem* ok

well, i know i've been absent for quite a long while. So sorry about that because i've been caught up with overwhelming school work. what to do? We, JC students are busy people, unlike some other people from poly get like nearly half a year of break, study a bit then later break another month. HAHA, just kidding, relax people! I'm going to make it short and simple.

1) I'm in Meridian Junior College
2) I don't mug as much.
3) I'm struggling a little with my work
4) I've just quited from my previous CCA (badminton recreational) because....

5) I GOT INTO THE STUDENT'S COUNCIL!!! And i'm very happy because...

6) II'M AN EX-CO MEMBER!!! (once again =P) : HEAD OF STUDENTS' AFFAIRS

HAHA, sounds damn posh right? Actually do lots of, what people call them: SAI GANG (or however you spell it lah! Sheesh). It means crappy, shitty job. But hey, i don't mind. I get to be in charge of school blazers, vending machines, morning assembly duties and school lockers. Whoa, heavy responsibilities man. The investiture is today (it's 1.51am now as i type) at 2.30pm. I love the council soooooooooooo much. I've learnt many many valuable things since CTC (councillor training camp). No time to update. Only reason why i update now is because i see my tagboard full of demand. And whatever externalities and marginal social cost and benefit... (stupid econs...) and also because i'm doing my freaking PI for my Project work... Grrrr... For those who know, it's a demanding thing and i really hate it! Ah well, until next time, good bye!

It's been a long time...

2008-03-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

Hey, readers. Been a long time but i've been busy. Not very keen to blog too. And i'm lazy. ZZZZ. Also, i'm banned from my computer. Damn. Anyways...

I seriously love MJC now. Perhaps it's a new environment, new friends and stuff. i dunno. So shut up leslie. LOLS. My classmates are great, we bonded very well together. We study hard, we fool around. I love the lecture theaters. Comfrotable seats but irritating tables. Slides down easily. It's common to hear things crashing to the floor. Either someone accidentally kicks it or someone's dozing off. My econs teacher and lit and geog teachers were qutie funny. Some sarcastic. The teachers/lecturers are really different from secondary school. Teachers here are much more funnier so lectures won't be sooooo boring till you fall asleep. Been watching videos lately. Sylvia Plath, and one on geography. Forget the name but teacher really make us notice what are the signs and indications before volcano eruption and during it. AN dsome hollywood exaggerations. Like how the jeep from the government agency can drive through a deep river almost submerged and leaking! BUT! Stull can get to the other side of the river. How people were crossing the river but water too acidic and boat starts to melt and the motor spoils. But guy from government agency takes of jacket and use it to row them to the other side. Acidic resistant jacket. WOW! And how bunch of people were running right in front and next to lava flow which os supposedly 800 degrees celcius hot but they were not dying. RIDICULOUS MAN! And they whole class and teachers were laughing about it. HA!

But enough of making fun of hollywood. I'm running for the councillor in MJC. So is Joseph. That guy say's he wants to quit. But now he has second thoughts. Sheesh. And he keeps wanting to know about my psoters. ><>

Damn, the PE is scary man. Don't want to talk about it. But after a long time without exercising, i seriously need to work out more. No, badminton isn't enough. Headaches are more frequent. SHit, i'm having one now. ARGH!!! Gtg before mum comes out of her room and screams at me for staying up late. ><

Update on my life..

2008-03-02T12:05:00.000+08:00

Hey dudes and dudettes! Sorry for this LOOOONG post-poned update. I've been pretty busy lately. Not with girls or playing games, but trying to get used to my new JC life. I've been posted to Meridian Junior College. I'm very happy to be there. The campus is new with lovely features and friendly teachers. I feel welcomed over there. Yes, i do agree that JC life is quite stressful. As my principal said, to prepare for the 'O' Levels, a student take 4 years. But for the 'A' Levels, he/she takes only 2 years. To be more specific, only one and a half years. The whole syllabus is much more difficult and intense. But i won't say it has no life. You can ask around, JC life IS still enjoyable. They have many things that could help you relax. There are events and most importantly, your friends. They are the people that makes you comfortable in this new place and it makes school life much more enjoyable. JC life matures you too. No more lame secondary school people running around and screaming.

About my orientation, it is REALLY fun. There are 5 houses is MJC. Atlas (yellow), Callisto (blue), Miranda (black), Phobos (red), and Triton (green). These are actually names of Moons. I was in Phobos and was with Fazari and Shafienas. SO at least i have some friends. My orientation group (OG), was actually my CG (class). The whole house is split into 7 small groups. I'm in Phobos 1. The thing about the orientation is that it is very very very different form sec school. The cheers are much more interesting, the games are much more fun and the people are really sporting and get along well with each other. I do not want to go through everything. Alot to say man. But, if you are taking the 'O' Levels this year, think about coming to MJC, and try it for yourself. I have to go, ciaos...

Notice

2008-02-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

BUSY!! WILL POST SOON. I GOT INTO MJC BY THE WAY =D

What my name means

2008-02-13T21:38:00.001+08:00

***What Xavier Ong Means***

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.
You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.
You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.
You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

Damn, that's true! =D

SILENCE! I KEEL YOU!

2008-02-09T01:06:00.000+08:00

HAHA! Saw it on Youtube. It's been done by a ventriloquist. Meaning some guy who can talk without moving his lips. Enjoy =D

I would also want to put a few pictures by requests from my classmates from MI:

Clockwise from back:

Kenneth, Winston, Jia Yi, Chadwyn, Cheryl, Darren, Wayne, Li Ying, Christina, Evan, Jefferey, Tai Hong, Xiao Zhao, Guan Liang, Xue Ting, Carmen, Me, Mr Raj (Teacher for Manage of Business) and Alex.

Others are all absent or withdrew. The sign we are doing is the "Mr Raj sign". It's a greeting between us when we see each other. LOL. If u want to complain, i suggest you better not. SILENCE! I KEEL YOU!

MY RESULTS!!!

2008-01-26T08:27:00.000+08:00

24th January 2008 Near 11pm

I reached school with Mark. Met up with Joseph. Nervous. Wait. Chatted with teachers.

Around 1.50pm

Gathered at hall. People start arriving. Tension mounts. Queued up in register number. Damn, i'm gonna be taking the results very late. Principal talk. Then the top scorer and all those who have done well receive their results from Principal. Ah well, i knew i'm lousy. No surprises that i'm not one of them. Congrats to Joseph, Damai's top scorer. Vice-Principal's talk. Damn damn long. People getting more restless and frustrated. Finally! Everyone broke out of their orderly arrangements and gathered around their form teachers. Soon, people were shouting. Some screamed. Others sob and some called home to tell parents of their results. The tension is gone. Relief, sadness or happiness flooded the hall. But not for me! i waited quite long. Went around congratulating others and comforting some. I was mentally prepared. I knew i would get around a 15 for L1R5. I was not expecting much. So, once i get my result slip, i look at it:

English A2
Combined Humanities A1
Mathematics A2
Science (Phy/Chem) A1
Food & Nutrition B3
Principles Of Accounts C5
Chinese A2
Chinese (Oral/Aural) Distinction

I was not in the clear state of mind. I need to know my L1R5! So, i tore open my Form A and quickly look for that:

L1R5 11 L1R4 8

WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I was over the moon man! Never would i expected such great results! My dad wanted a score below 12 and I did it! I called my parents and tuition teacher. Told them my results. Gosh, it was such a relief. I went around getting congrats from friends and also comforting those who didn't do well. For those who did well, they received a smack on the back from me. LOL.

So, to all who have done well, CONGRATULATIONS!!! A brand new and hopeful beginning awaits. Work hard and may you be successful in life!

For those who have not done well, it's ok, not the end yet. Though it's normal to feel devastated, you know that you've done your best. Pull yourself together and get into some course. You can excel in there! Believe in yourself! Passion feeds success!

Alright, i got to go now.. Bye!

Boring day...

2008-01-17T22:09:00.001+08:00

HEY! Very long never blog. Lazy and busy too. MI has some hot girls, Joel. But for more, check out SAJC. HAHA! Oh, haniffa, don't bother about the food there. As I've mentioned, the food there is...errr... >.<>

Tired...

2008-01-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

Whew... Finally have the chance to blog. Been kinda busy lately. Due to PAE, i have been enrolled into Millennia Institute. "Ah boy arh? Where is this meeelannia jayseee arh? Near meeelannia walk arh?" No you bloody gits, it's at bukit batok. I have to travel bus 506 every freaking weekday. Sit about 30-45 minutes every journey. Ass hurts like hell. Don't even get me started on the freezing cold and bloody holicks advertisement i have to endure.. "hohoho..." help..... Oh ya, it's $2.35 for every journey. By the way, i went to OCH with some friends during new year's day. Took some pics but bloody blogger takes so long to upload.

Hmmm, wondering how is MI? Well, the place is new, big and definitely better then Damai. The orientation is not as good as i expected, but definitely much more different from secondary school's. It's like i'm being a sec 1 again, experiencing all the new things. All strange faces and unfamiliar people. Not to mention some pretty girls. AHEM. SO... MI, hmm.. Canteen food? Not nice. To be crude, SUCKS. Expensive too. AND AND, all payments to be made using CASHCARD. Yes yes, exclaim all you want. So kinda troublesome. i might not be updating my blog for sometime, so i'm sorry. Well, you people who are reading must be laughing your asses off cause you have all the time to read. I HAVE TO STUDY! By the way, i'm in the commerce course taking: Economics, Accounting and Management of Business.

Xavier signing off...

End of 2007

2007-12-31T00:49:00.000+08:00

Well, sorry from my long absence. I've been quite busy and lazy to blog. I do not feel like blogging about stuff long ago. Anyway, i went to the liang jing ru concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium yesterday. I had 2 free tickets because my dad bought me my K850i that time. M1 gave me the 2 tickets for free. As expected, the seatings were obviously the wants far away from the stage. All the way up and at the corner. If you are wondering who i went with, i won't say. If you know me well you could guess it already. Yes yes yes, it is a GIRL. Sheesh, stop teasing already. >_>

Seeing that the year is coming to an end, i might as well express my feelings to some of my close friends here:

Joel:
Hey dude. One of my closest friend since sec 1. Endured my countless teasing since the day we spoke. Wonderful memories *stares ahead dreamily*. Ah well, good things don't last long XD. Honestly, i do feel that i teased you too much last time. I wish i didn't. You know, calling you Shrek, teasing you about CNY and stuff. So, a big sorry to you first. I'm also grateful that you have been close to me as a friend and never fail to make me laugh at times with your weird actions and great jokes (some racist ones). Your company would be one that I would miss dearly next year when i start school. Hopefully, we could go to the same school and class. =)

Joseph:
Ahhh, Joel's maniac twin. Sarcastic and vulgar at times, yet smart and funny too. I really do miss the days back in sec 1 and 2 where you and your brother stirs up laughter all the time. But not the part where both of you starts calling everyone slave. HAHA! Well, we do not really talk much but it is great to have your company when going out with you. Hope we'll end up in MJC. =)

Haniffa:
Hey there my gigantic friend! Heh heh. If i'm not wrong, i got to know you through Fazari. Since that day we spoke, we clicked immediately. Also another friend who makes me laugh and jokes frequently. You make me feel that with you beside me, i could never be lonely and it's a nice feeling, to hear others talk and make me laugh. Usually, i talk the most. OK! We both talk alot. Haha, i guess i'll miss teasing you about your weight and stuff. Well, since the time when you and you-know-who (not Lord Voldemort) started ignoring me and showing me attitude, it really really upsets me. Till now, I still do not know what happened and what made you act like that! I'm happy to say that we are back to talking terms now although i think that we won't be spending time together again. Still, thank you for being such a great company next to me. =D

Yi Chen (a.k.a Flakk)
Your highness, i would like to seek an audience. LOL. This is the self-proclaimed emperor. It is strange that we do not talk much during sec 1 and 2, only in sec 3 and 4. You were the quiet, chubby, and pale boy who keeps to himself and rarely talks. Now, it is totally different. You are more affable now and maybe less cocky. Wait. I'm not sure about the cocky part. Haha. Having your company during outings makes it more enjoyable. Why? Because your paleness provides something for us to tease, you are slightly better in most games which means you could teach me, you and Joseph quarrel..sorry... *ahem* "debate" all the time about almost everything, and that you (i regret to say this) are better in English and could always hear profound words and stuff from you. Thanks for being a great comapny for these years. =)

Mark:
Hmmm, we rarely spoke to each other. However, going out with Joel and the bunch made me know you a bit better. It's always great to have someone laughing at your jokes, and you and your brother, Ben, always oblige. Oh, and also thank you for getting me a dog-tag from Thailand. Haha. For English and gaming tips, I could always ask you. To have outings with you has been enjoyable. Thanks =)

Jake:
Jakey Wakey! LOLS! Yes Mr President, i have learnt much from you in the students' council. Although we do not talk much (it's mostly me teasing you, and ended up getting punches and jabs), it has been a great experience to work with you and learn from you. To hear quotes and stuff, the first person that comes to my mind would be you: "Blah blah blah says that... I heard that blah blah says that... You know there's a saying... and the famous: In NCC, we blah blah blah". XD. Thanks for everything. =)

Jia Xian:
Ahhh, i doubt you'll read this. Anyway, it's great to finally be on friendly terms with you in sec 3. Remember how we just detest each other in sec 1 and 2. Why? Just because people say we look alike. I really do not see that. Cock eye people =P. Just kidding! So yea, a big big thank you for introducing me to our tuition teacher. If not, i do not think i would be confident in my Mathematics and Science. Also, i thank you for being my great partner all this while in sec 3 and 4. We really talked alot and i knew about you more than people in our school do. Your jokes would be missed and i hope your dreams could come true. Best of luck! =)

Angel:
Yes yes, my not-so-guai disciple. Seems like we only know each other a little better since last year. Well, now that you are emotionally stable, I do not have to comfort you as much. It's usually teasing and chatting now. Oh yea, and a game of pool too (on MSN of course). To have a late night/early morning online friend to talk to keeps me from being lonly. Thanks =)

To the Students Council:
Yes, to all of you, a big thank you for bring me joy and happiness all this while. The only lovable thing in Damai is the students' council. True, i have been quite harsh and strict at times but hey, i have been the joker and brought to you guys laughter too. Well, hope you guys do well in everything and grow up to be aspiring leaders. =)

To all that I've missed out:
Yes, you have been great friends to me too, just that it's 12.46a.m. now and i'm tired and lazy to carry on. No, i do not forget about the times spent with you. You have been absolutely helpful to me and a great comapny too. Thank You =D

Well, this is it. A new year tomorrow. A new beginning. Another fresh start. We must let go of our past, to proceed into the future. Happy new year everyone!

Xavier Ong

December's ending soon..

2007-12-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

Sorry from the absence for these couple of days. I've either no mood to blog, or I'm just too tired. Well, let's start with wednesday. I was stoning at home and really have nothing to do. It's pretty stupid how i wasted my holidays away. I'm lazy. i'm just too lazy. I don't want to work, I don't want to take any classes for anything, I refuse to do anything but just sit in front of my computer and play my day away. Every night i'll lie on my bed and think: I'm gonna go jogging tomorrow. I'm gonna go to work with my dad.

BULLSHIT. Nothing happened. Back to the story...

It was dinner time and i went to the nearby coffee shop. Same old boring food that always irks me but i have no choice but to eat. i was about to be bored to death until i saw a traffic police stopping. He walked to the traffic light near the coffee shop and walked towards to men. Apparently, they were caught crossing the road illegally. I saw those 2 men trying to argue their way out. Couldn't tell what they were saying but roughly know what's going on. Typical Singaporean, trying to weasel out of anything bad. Too bad. And i spent the rest of my dinner time eating and watching innocent idiots getting caught. I was surprised that so many people were caught. Soon, all the people at the coffee shop were talking about it and I could hear them pretty loudly. Not to mention some loud swearing. lol.

Moral of the story: cross the road illegally ONLY when no traffic police around =P nah, just kidding. CROSS THE GODDAMN ROAD ONLY ON WHEN IT'S 'GREEN MAN' ! Somehow, the stupid song from the advertisement on TV rings in my ears: "pass it on, pass it on.." ARGH!

On thursday, i met up with Joel, Joseph, Yi Chen (Flakk), and Matthias for cycling. We cycled to east coast park and tried the new park connector to Changi beach. The journey was 7km++. Quite tiring though. But the stupid thing was that we took 1 hour to try to get to east coast. We could not find a way to cross a road that would lead the way to east coast. SO, after many stupid attempts that include carrying our bikes up and down steps and getting our bikes and shoes dirty with mud, WE MADE IT! (applause and cheers =.=) Flakk and Matt went to rent bikes while the rest bought drinks. Killer prices man, daylight robbery. $1.60 for a chilled bottle of 100+. wtf!? Anyway, i suggested that matt and flakk save $$ and take the bike with 2 seats (the one that couples usually rent. I'm NOT suggesting anything. =.=) oh well, spoil sport, they didn't. So the 5 of us set of and made our journey to Changi beach. they journey was surprisingly pleasant. The weather was fine, and the new path was quite lovely. It was un-Singapore. And the lovely scenery (don't be shock, there's still scenery in Singapore). OH, anyway, i got pretty nauseas suddenly and had to rest. The rest went around the beach and made a discovery of a dead cat with it's innards spilling out. Credit goes to Joel. And flakk took pictures of it. For more information, go to yi chen's blog. There's a link from my blog. So we rode there enjoying the breeze and the scenery. And we saw planes landing and taking-off.

After reaching there, it was pretty late so we headed back to east coast. Lame, you might say but it was getting dark and we were darn hungry and thirsty. So we went to the hawker center nearby and ordered Bak-chor mee. Yum Yum! Oh, and satay too. Not to mention heavenly sugar-cane juice! It tasted damn good as we were all hungry. Surprised that there were touting at that area. Many people were calling us to buy satay from their stalls. Mind, there were around 7 stalls selling satay! Imagine the noise. Blah, blah, then we headed to joel's home. I left my bike there as i was too tired to cycle home. Oh, we went to the gate and the key was stuck in the lock! Everyone tried tugging hard at it. Turning and pulling with all our might. Joseph called the security guard. Apparently, it happened before but nothing was done. Then, flakk suggested using psychic powers and all of us made a stupid hand gesture (like in some Canto gong-fu shows =.=) Amazingly, i turned the key and it came out from the lock. We were all shocked and was laughing about it. ~End~

Yesterday, dad painted my room. Guess what colour? White. Of all colours, he picked white. Now my whole room was starking white. Damn it. And at night we went to aunt's house to eat steamboat. Yum Yum. And had some red wine, and Tang Yuan. Joel sms me saying he was stuck somewhere due to heavy rain. I said i was at aunt's house warm and comfortable eating steamboat. LOL.

And that's all folks. Bye.

LOL!

2007-12-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

laugh your asses out

FREE YOUR PHONE - ZEDGE.NET

YAWN! bad slping habit

2007-12-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

Due to the overwhelming response from "pro" people, i'm going to blog in accurate English and in paragraphs too. LOL. hmmm, over the hols, i've developed this stupid habit of sleeping late. Usually at 2 or 3am. I don't know why but it seems that i could not sleep early if i wanted to. anyway, i woke up at 10+ today from some noise made by my parents. hearing my dad's voice, i was thinking about how to persuade him to take me out and have fun. then suddenly *WHAM*! i remembered we are helping our neighbours to paint their living room! gosh, i'm late i'm late! suppose to start preparation at 10am. scrambling and hustling, i got myself ready and rushed next door.

now, u might ask, why do my parents and i have to help them? thinking about that, yeah, why should we?!?! every time, it's my dad who: fix their broken pipes, broken door lock, busted floor tiles, blown lamps, shifting furniture, and painting their house. AND NO! they are a happy and whole family accept that i don't get it why their dad doesn't do all this stuff?!? maybe he doesn't know. maybe he's plain lazy. maybe he's freaking taking advantage that my dad always helps him. gosh, my dad is kind and capable. back to the story...

so, we started shifting the furniture, and using masking (spelling?) tapes, we taped it to old newspapers and taped them on the floor, ceiling, etc etc. this is because we do not want the floor and other places getting dirty. gosh, their walls and ceiling are really quite dirty. i think about 2-5 years never paint liao. and the ceiling, due to joss sticks, we quite black. have to paint over it 4 to 5 times to look alright. all in all, it was a very tiring day. paint was on my hands and legs and my dad who painted the ceiling was dotted with paint. kinda comical. i do the easy job of painting small corners. haha.

after everything, neighbours decided to treat us KFC. WOW! good right? wanted to go my house nearby to buy. in the end, it rained heavily. SHIT! no more kfc T_T. what to do? call KFC new delivery hotline. ok, nvm, at least still can eat ^^... went home to bathe and wash the filth. came out and was told that dinner would arrive at 7.30pm. no big deal, what time was it then. *look at the clock* 6 o'clock!?!?! wtf!?! it takes KFC delivery 1.5 hours to get here? gosh, that is lousy man. what kind of shitty service is that. don't give me the shit that it's raining because McDonalds delivery took 15 minutes on a rainy day. oh well, at least the long wait made the food taste nicer when it arrived. maybe it's their plan. if it was, it sucks. wahahaha.

oh well, for the next few weeks, must must cherish. hols coming to an end!!! nooooooo!!! T_T and i did the PAE thing and kinda regret. Millennia Institute at Bukit Batok O.o o.O so far right? wonder how will it be like. do not feel like going cos have to report on 2nd January. and i want to go to sec 1 orientation of my school. i mean ex-secondary school. DAMAI. haiz. wonderful memories..... *looks up and stares at the sky*

ya la hor! stare at sky at 2.48am. PUI arh! stare upwards will only give me a sharp pain and cann see my ceiling and bright light. shit, going to sleep already. friends, if got any plans to go out and have fun, please do call me. in need of entertainment. (THINK STRAIGHT. gosh, perverts =P)

Angry? Nah, couldn't be bothered

2007-12-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

FYI people, next time if you are unhappy with someone, please do tell he/she. you should not keep quiet and do stuff behind that person's back. it's a very terrible thing to do. first, ask yourself why you are angry. is is your fault? clarify first. don't be a bastard and insult him all over. if you are unhappy tell he/she lah. gosh, and now u might regret the stuff you did. isn't it silly? setting up the BAX thing. oh god, tell it in my face lah. whose fault is it anyway? me? i did not spend time with you guys? if you all even bother to come to the councillor room, sms me time to time, chat on msn, this would not have happened!?! really childish man. it's frustrating and yet a little funny too. gosh, some people just never learn and never grow up.

oh well, i don't wish to talk about it anymore. reader, you might be asking why am i typing in this manner. cos LEE YI CHEN suggested that i type properly and in paragraphs. it's my goddamn blog and i shall type it my way. but to make him happy (for just a little bit) i shall type this post today the way he wanted. he didn't specify so i should do it for this post only. HAHAHA! regarding the video that i posted (scroll down), it's someone throwing a satay stick with a marshmallow and i catch it with my mouth. didn't happen lah, the camera was so sucky that you couldn't see the satay falling and i used another stick which i've been holding and concealing. then i quickly turn around and put in my mouth. WHATEVER! lame, i know. but i was in sec 3 =)

got to go now, ciaos

2007-12-13T02:22:00.000+08:00

it's alr a thursday early morn
haven slpt yet
was browsing blogs
and incidentally saw zhi wei's blog
msg to him:

i'm sick and tired of it
i dun wan to pursue it anymore
but pls hold ur tongue and THINK before u speak
y do u hav to insult ppl all the time?
and coincidentally it's always me
if u tink planning a camp is easy, by all means try it urself
dun insult ppl if u hav nt done planning before
nth is perfect
if u wan a goddamn wonderful camp, plan urself
i doubt it'll be gd anyway
i'm nt gonna use wonderful english in this msg lyk hw u do
i'm putting it plain and simple for all to see
gosh, how many times hav i been angry wif u?
everytime me and others try to accommodate u
to let go of the past and forgive u
something bad happens agn
tt's y u find ppl loathe u
and so it's a vicious cycle
pls reflect

ppl reading if u wan to know more, go to links and click his name
the post is dated saturday, 9 June, 2007

2007-12-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh
i didn't expect it to appear on YouTube
damn it
this happended in sec 3, my class bbq
cant see very clearly though
i tink is wither xiao yun or justina filming, tt's her voice

2007-12-12T20:57:00.001+08:00

http://frankly.pitas.com/?

damn lame, but confirm no virus, i swear =D

Sixteen

2007-12-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

yep, i'm finally say
feels weird though, when i've finally reached this point
before tt u r looking forward to 16
when u reach dere... it's nth special at all
so what if u can watch NC 16 movies? big deal
more blood, violence, harsh language and nudity
pfft, it's juz a goddamn show...
coming to this stage of life feels weird
somehow, after leaving primary sch, i dun feel extremely sad
however, thinking of leaving damai has been oddly saddening
is it cos i've grown up and think more?
or is secondary sch life is more exciting than primary's?
or are the friends and teachers tt we r emotionally attached to?
16... thinking abt it is scary
for guys, u r going to undergo tertiary education
and after tt, NS!?
it's so fast
things are going by so fast as we grow up
things juz flash by us
gosh, back when i was in kindergarten, holidays were heavenly
2 months feels juz like 3..
nw? it juz isn't enough and when we are adults, there will be none
unfair? tt's juz life
are the friend tt u hav made were to be forgotten?
it's up to us whether we wan to keep in touch
in pri sch, our so called "BEST" friends..
whr r they nw? still in contact? or nt?
for me, no... they seem to be locked up in my memory...
gosh, they wonderful times last time
silly things we said and did....
nw it's time to move on and be more mature
and being more mature, our fun time seems to be lesser
our definition of fun seems to change and it's much more difficult
to be able to hav fun alr...
last time, all i need is to run around at the void deck
with ohter small kids.. tt's fun
nw u call me do tt?!? =.=
my birthday each year seems to be more and more dull
[erhaps i dun hav a gang of friends which i always belong
i mingle around the class and other ppl in sch
sad to say i dun think i hav frens outside of sch
they all seem to be ex pri sch frens and sec sch frens
last time, my birthday is always celebrated
parties, relatives coming over, decorating the house, lots of presents
birthdat cake and many ppl singing birthday song
this year?
out with frens for one day doing nth much.. walking aimlessly
at shopping centre (appreciated tt though)
they gt me a coffee cake, but didn't sing song cos i didn't wan
nite time, go out with parents to eat
got home aunt giv a cake and left
cake was cut without singing song and i didn't even eat it
i was in front of computer, stone
hell, parents didn't even wish me happy birthday or giv me presents
oh rite, a new hp...
guess i couldn't complain huh?
but somehow, i prefer more ppl coming together having fun than
some grown up way of having time together
i rather nt hav the expensive presents
i duno y, i'm sad all of a sudden
i dun wish to cont...
thx everyone for ur birthday wishes and presents..
especially u...

Rant and Rave...

2007-11-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

well...
whr to begin?
lemme begin wif prom...

the day started wif me waking up happily
was lookin forward to it
so at 3.20pm, i met up wif joel, niki and cheryl at bedok inter
den went to cheryl's godma's house
me and joel outside watchin animal planet
the girls gotta make up etc etc
u noe, hw troublesome it is for girls to get ready...
den 10 mintues before departing, me and joel change
JUZ 10 MINUTES and we're done
well, reached dere early and saw rehearsals
was kinda boring though
waited for more guests to arrive and compliment each other
frens and ppl frm sch were dressed to impress
everyone looked very diff
well, some looked diff in a negative way.. >.<
den watch performances..
band sang 3 songs tt burst my eardrums (nt a gd thing)
den ccl performance (no comments)
lucky draw i gt 1 set of shampoo stuff LOL
the worst thing was tt the smoke used for "special effects"
keep blowing to my table and it was chokin
freaking irritating..
the food was alrite anyways, loved the fish
took some pictures, dance floor open blahz and went home
wasn't as emotional or fun as i expected...

hmm, one or 2 days later went food fair wif parents
nvr love going to food fairs
1) it's squeezy
2) it's smelly (oily smell lingers in air-con hall)
3) aunties wif small kids rushing around
4) seeing how ppl rush to test food without wanting to buy them
THE MOST RETARDED THING:
ppl queing up to sample milo 0.o
which singaporean hav nt drank milo frm young!?!
come on man ppl, shld be ashamed of urself
sample milo? enough said...

today was dragged by mum to facial
I WAS DRAGGED RELUCTANTLY
facial is the world's worst goddamn torture
i thought it was all relaxing and stuff since girls and tai-tais love it
lemme tell u simply in 2 words:
IT HURTS
i'm serious man, they squeeze every freaking pimple u hav
visible or nt, they will find a way to squeeze and get rid of it
it was pure torture man
imagine fire ants crawling to various spots on ur face AND STING U
u lyk it?
i wonder hw girls can put up wif it
nw face looks ugly wif red spots
grrrrr
worst is tt mum says i might go back for 2nd and 3rd treatment
enough said, my day's ruined, nitez peeps

LONG TIME NO SEE!!!

2007-11-15T23:24:00.001+08:00

hey hey hey i'm back!
long time no see, ppl tot i mati =X
anyways, o lvl is finally over

*cheering at background*

somehwo i'm still nt in the holiday mood, i guess it takes time
juz finished ccl camp for 2 days
quite alrite lah
if it wasn't for the sec 4s dere, it wouldn't be as fun
nt sayin it wasn't fun, haha
i'll be changing my blogskin soon as this one is err...
u noe... haha
so juz wanna say gd job to the current ex-co of ccl
for doing a gd job at the camp
and the sec 4s!

joel: thx for being my great buddy at camps, wif u confirm can laugh
gonna miss the gd old days. thinking back, i really really miss all the fun time
juz wish it wasn't over yet.. oh well, gd things come to an end.
jia xian: dun think u will see this but nvm.. thx for being my gd buddy in class and camps
thx for sharing all ur thoughts wif me, it means alot and oso for hearing my thoughts
cheryl: i really shouldn't be mentioning tt u snored when u slept, i shouldn't be mentioning
tt u slept really close wif joel tt nite.. whew, lucky i didn't say :p
niki: erm... thx for letting me play wif ur snowman? lols
shi qi: thx and sry for lettin me insult u all the time =X it was all in the name of fun
so no hard feelings k?

haiz, guess the last time we gonna meet will be the prom nite
a part of me cant wait to move on but another wans to stay n sec sch
well i guess i'll be ready after the hols
the idea of tt i'm really growing up is quite frightening
to be honest, i'm nt prepared yet
the idea of me going to NS in a couple of years is unnerving
sound childish but i tink remaining as a kid seems so much fun
but den i won be able to see R21 show nxt time!
ha! jkjk!
oh well, gtg

HAHAHA! HILARIOUS! Shame to be in damai man...

2007-09-01T18:28:00.000+08:00

hey peeps,
i duno if anyone is still reading but i gotta share smth
damai is in the news agn
in chi newspapers
somebody wrote to say tt damai sent a notice
to tell residents abt the collection of old newsopapers
on thursday, 30/8/2007
the note was written in eng, chi and malay
however, the chi note was written horribly
it was loosely translated

i'll upload the pics some other time
i gtg study
damn prelims and o lvl
bb

Sick of Studying...

2007-07-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

hello, if anyone's still reading
i'm better nw
stopped emo-ing alr
dun care alr
i bury myself wif hmwk to stop the pain
and besides, i found someone who helps me...
prelims and o lvl is nearing
i cant say my life will be exciting frm this point onwards
wad to do but study study study
no choice, gotta endure...
i'm worried abt my geog common test, will i pass?
i doubt it.
after hearing frm the teacher, i seriously dount i'll pass
oh well, gotta STUDY more
until nxt time.. bb

life upside down, inside out...

2007-07-15T14:47:00.000+08:00

haiz
haiz
haiz
haiz
haiz
...........
lots of things happen lately
been really frustrated
family and stuff
><
dun ask me y...
tied up with more and more sch work
prelims coming in ard 50 days
o lvl is nearer
freaking out
bb

wad a day!

2007-07-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

well well well
looks like my blog's knda dead alr
i'm here to revive it
sry readers, been busy
AND
lazy
hahaha
actually lots of stuff happen
but i 4got and dun wan rmbr agn
happy, sad, angry, etc.
wadeva it is, i wanna study
i really wan to
but i cant bring myself to
my aim is to get into VJC
*gasp*
yea yea, unbelievable
but i wan to
i wan to work hard and wadeva but...
i cant bring myself to
i tend to slack or play
i need to be pushed
oh sure, my parents hav pushed me
but i dun lyk the way they do it
it seems like almost every few days,
i'll quarrel with either 1 of them
they dun trust me
we cant communicate well
damn, i think my mum still searches my things?
>< >< ><
anyways, juz finished another quarrel
hahah
dun care lah
irritating... say liao blood boil

today muz watch live earth show on tv!!!
shld be very interesting
all the famous superstars
24hrs man
gonna watch parts of it
if keep watching parents gonna kill me ><
argh, no mood lah
BYE!

16 days...

Wait for nxt post!

2007-06-27T13:11:00.000+08:00

hey. using sch com nw.
my com dieded. LOL
so wait for my nxt post.
i'm nt dat emo alr lah
lots to say.
bb

What's happening...

2007-05-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

wad's happening to me...
someone pls tell me
i duno...
i like a train which is derailed
i'm nt on the right track
i dun study as hard
i am too playful
i lied too much
i dun even noe wd i'm doing at times
and to commit grave errors
without thinking abt the consequences
omg...
wad is going on!?!
someone pls help
i'm feeling really shitty
i need a solution
something
anything...

After MYE...

2007-05-16T13:17:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i'm back.
i dun really noe whether anyone still reads this
i guess nt.
wadeva. i'm havin f&n nw, blogging secretly =P
nth happening really
my life is going down the drain
it's in the dumps man
luck has turn frm bad to worse
it sucks
i met with obstacles everywhere
setbacks happen frequently
damn it! i dun think i've been exactly very happy since the start of this yr
my exam scores isn't very gd
my frenship with some ppl are strained or severed
it juz sucks
i dun noe hw to convey the sadness within
ppl say i emo
so be it
i'm numb alr
fcuking attitudes i've been receiving are too much alr
i've learnt to accept it
this life sucks
it really sucks
i dun feel the joy of coming to school anymore
and going back home isn't much better
nth can cheer me up
movies? boring
games? boring
wad can cheer me up?
someone can suggest pls?
i dun wan to be an emo kid dat keeps saying:
life sucks. blah blah
but nw i utd y ppl say dat
some pretend, others are real
i feel discouraged
alone
frustrated
...
sad
...
...
...
...

In school now...

2007-04-18T13:00:00.001+08:00

haha, gotta make this quick
in sch doing F&N nw
haha
been really busy this month
many unhappy things happen
haiz
sec 4 life really sux
it's really tiring
i hate it
mid yr is coming
it's time to chiong agn
let's work hard!
cant afford to slack anymore

thx for all the wonderful time we spend together...

Refreshed

2007-04-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY

woke up by koon hiang's msg

7.20am

damn tired

call me help her do flag day =.=

went back to slpp

woke up by her agn

same thing -___-

den finally 10.30+ woke up

den drag until 12+ go mac

meet up with her and mei wah

they finished flag day

suppose to wait for joel

SUPPOSE to arrive at 1+

but say he will reach at 2.30+

so go my house stone a bit

den wait for him

till 3+

wtf!?!

den go koon hiang house

SUPPOSE to do planning for camp/party

in the end nth much done

drag until evening

koon hiang's (kh) family is very united

very envious

always do things together

damn envious >_<

haha

den 4 of us go Parkway eat

at foodcourt

LOL

den go east coast

at the beach dere, nt much ppl

nt gonna say much lah

but this is wad happen to my leg:

yep, laugh u gits =X

TODAY

went to pray my grandfather

every yr the same

but every yr mood diff

this yr i was sick

i had flu

argh

nw haven recover

but cheered up a little as i ate ice-cream =D

saw my cousins

nth much though

boring!!!!!

i really enjoy my time with u

i thought i was the only troubled wan

until i met u

could we do this agn?

at that moment i felt

dat nth really mattered

i felt for once this yr

relaxed and happy

thank you

EMO? NO!!!!

2007-04-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

hey
back agn
but nt happy
nt REALLY happy
like in the past
duno wad happen this yr
alot of sadness ard
and i'm nt an emo kia
seriously
juz wanna share...

firstly, my family
my dad is stress with work
so when he comes back
and hears mum nags at me
it isn't a gd thing
so he was quite angry dat day
and kinda quarrelled
nah, it's more of silent anger
which is even more scarier
den it drags to other areas
like sch work
and the whole thing starts agn
they say i dun understand but
this is hw i see it
i do my work, yes, i really do
i might be lazy sometimes
when i'm lazy, they always happen to see
but when i'm studying, they do not
they meaning my parents
so once agn, the saga begins
nt really quarrelling lah
but kinda sad
my parents dun wan me to play or watch any dvds
they say i shld concentrate on studies
i say i need to relax
they say relax juz lie down on the bed and rest
hello?
cant i relax awhile
for few whole months without dvd and games?
will die leh
and dat's wad anger them
they start saying some guy
who is in poly nw
hav endured a few months without com games
and get 10pts
but he wan go poly
he's an N(A) student
hey!
so wad?!?!?
he is he
me is me
and who noes wad he say is real
and whether he gt watch DVDs or nt
damn
say until i angry
nw
and nw they are adopting this technique
u wan do wad go ahead
they keep saying dat
argh
oh ya, this too:
wad we ought to say, we say liao
it's up to u
WTF!?!?
i hear this "threaten" for so many times alr man
i'm frustrated
but wad can i do
the only child and only son
i can only bear with it
ALONE
no bros or sis to be dere for me
let alone frens
who dun really get the whole pic
enough with family probs
nowadays parents let me do wad i wan
but i'm nt complaining

nw sch
i think our sch VP is cool man
he came our class regarding smth
nt gonna say
but the way he speaks
the way he stands and everything abt him
u can really tell dat he's respectable
i found my respect to him
he's a gentleman man
no pun intended =P
well, frens in my class and the council change too
they r more emo nw
maybe they hav their own probs?
one guy close fren of mine
seems to hav changed
he seens to be growing distant with me and the councillors
i mean it's ok to hav other frens
but his attitude change A LOT
and ppl start to dislike him
and he doesn't realise it
i'm nt gonna say more even thought i wan
cos it will be obvious
for those who noe, gd
well, in the council
ppl change too
some r getting more touchy
AND sensitive
keep saying dun like this dun like dat
his comments are very straightforward
however, mu consider whether wad u say
is gonna be hurtful or anything
u can say: hey! dat's hw i thought
wad u going to do
wtf!?!
to hell with ur arrogant attitude man
wake up frm ur dream bubble
time to change for the BETTER!!!
cheryl starts to change
i start to change
we wanna be more matured
in a few monts time, dere's no more fun and games
and nxt yr, it's a whole new journey
we hav to change our behaviour
i think dat's life
dat's hw ppl change
dat's y i posted the previous post

well, this is my blog
this r my views
sry if u find my comments hurtful
i wan to get this off my chest
can tag me if u find it offensive
or hav my views wrongly on u
i'll change
so long as u dun shout straight in my face
with VULGARITIES worse
or show me attitude each day
and cold war with me
i hav to say agn
frens in sec sch life
r nt for life
and i shall nvr go back on my word
i dun mind to lose u as a fren
if u dun wan me to be ur fren
for the remaining yrs, in damai

i've siad wad i want to say
time to go
until nxt time
godd bye

A new born...

2007-03-26T22:13:00.001+08:00

hey ppl!
i'm back
after meet the parents session
and lectures by parents
i'm reborn
i'm gonna change
i will:
stop being a pain in the ass
be such a joker (a bit can)
change my attitude
chiong studies
be more hardworking
train physically

haha
it's time to get serious
i keep telling myself dat
but i didn't do anything
it gets pushed to the back of my mind
and it's irritating to keep it dere
so i let it out
and go with the flow
i'll study hard now!!!
CHIONG ARH!!!!

this aside...
this few days nth much
meet-the-parents was
BORING!!!!!!!!
so sian wan
i thought i would be exciting
den later go watch a movie or smth
in the end stone at councillor room
O.o
wth... disappointing
den today gt speech day rehearsal
a bit funny
and today actually my duty redundant
stand dere nvr do a thing
=.=
but uniform grp sad lah
stand under hot sun
lols

oh ya
my geog teacher leaving soon
quite sad
she's really gd and i know her since sec 2
nw leaving sch le
den duno wad kind of teacher coming toteach us
confirm no more mood to study lor
change teacher
haiz
i think dat's abt it
nth much to say
i pretty much recover frm dat day
whr i was EMO (refer previous post)
i thought it through
till den, bb

Sick of this life...

2007-03-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

hello my frens
it's been awhile
i shall tok abt frenship here
PLS DO READ TO THE BOTTOM
THX!

friendship in pri and sec sch
izit strong? will it last?
i see my father
his close fren have been with him for more than 10 yrs they go out regularly on saturdays to have dinner and chat
pri sch or sec sch frens? i asked him
neither
he says dat the frens i hav nw is only temporary
they will nt ur best pals, stick through all the way with u
i started to retort but he says
"think! is dere really anyone who really goes through everything with u? really care so much abt u? reall share all his secrets with u? no. they r juz temporary gd frens. take a look at ur pri sch frens. do still in contact with them? some yes some no. but do u still hav so much fun, share so many things and tok to them like how u tok to ur frens nw? no."

now dat stunned me.
it made me realise dat i shld nt trust my frens much
nt dat they are bad or anything
but listening to DAT made me think
hey, it's true man.
he/she might be influenced by some stupid rumours and start to hate u
or
he/she might juz ignore or even worse, put u into trouble to be better and for progress sake
i've been backstabbed, bad-mouthed and seen cases abt these things too many times.
i'm numb alr
it's stupid
i'm still naive
i'm willing to share with someone
to be for him or her
but can i?
will he/she?
i cant even really do dat with my own parents, let alone frens
i'm envious for ppl whose parents r all ears to their child
listening, given some advice and stuff
sharing abt life, abt bgr, abt interest
but i'll nvr hav it
frm young i'll hav "lectures" abt the birds and the bees
dat they r WRONG
hey, if a person masturbates, he/she is nt gonna die man
it's his/her own personal will
so long as it doesn't affect me
abt realationship
parents: better nt to get in realationship arh. later results all fail.....
blah blah blah
nt once a month
is almost every week
hw do u expect me to communicate
we juz won click
ironic huh? my own parents
and the views are diff
generation gap u say?
maybe...

recently so many probs crept up
it seems like a funny thing for sec 4s
some are studying, some are nt
some are anxious, other not
bgrs do nt last anymore
almost time to time, i'll hear abt ppl beraking up
den console them...
too stress abt studying
console them...
too lazy
enocurage them...
hell, i do need these too
i'm a HUMAN too
i'm so freaking fed up with this life man
secrets? to hell with them
i hate it
i might as well share it with ppl, a burden off me
o lvl yr
i do hav to study
but i find myself slacking
i wanna study but i cant bring myself to
y? how?
i'm still searching myself
it's stupid, this is only sec 4
i'm only 16, and a long journey awaits
and i'm beaten down alr?
i juz wanna abandon everything
go for some soul searching at some peaceful area
and come back physically and mentally prepared and charged

stupid jokes and guai lan comments
i guess dat's hw ppl look at me
my mouth
i hate it
i rather do with a quiet personality but sociable too
my mouth gets me into trouble years back
i dun wan it to happen agn
i rather i loss my gift to joke ard
serious times and i dun feel it
i joke ard
planning stuff
ppl racking their brains
i rack by brains saying smth funny
i find myself the JOKER
and even the D.I.S.C says me clearly
i feel myself irritating
i juz duno when to stop...
i feel stupid...
i dun wan to be a joker, a clown
humorous is gd, nt being a joker
those are 2 different things
i duno hw to explain it
but i noe it
can my life change?
can i be serious frm nw on?
the laughter and smiles since sec sch life
it's diff
it's smiles and laugh at expression, but it's without heart

I'M TIRED, I REALLY AM...

Fun's over, now it's hmwk... T__T

2007-03-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

hello!
my dad's dad mood has blown over faster den i expected it.
juz the nxt day, he called me asking whether i gt go class bbq
i dun wan, cos he bad mood mah
he say: u dun wan go play meh
i was like so many hmwk blah blah blah
den he say go play lah
so i went =)
class bbq quite fun
at pasir ris park
share cab with nasihah
cos gt lots of things to take
she need help
reach dere liao den realize gt prob
someone else claim dat they oso book the same pit
in the end they change pit =.=
den blahz, bbq satay and chicken wings
den we hav so much food!!!
too many liao
so kept bbq
fire too small to cook lah
no fire at all
it's red glowing charcoal
dat's for chicken wings
but for satay, u need a little fire
den fan it for the best effect
haiz, they dun wan listen
so continue lor
waited quite long
lucky gt rice
ate first
den drank a few sparkling juices
den ask for real beer/wine
den we started to order
i wanted to try a Barcardi
so i orderd 1
after a very long time
the ppl buying came back
tried it
it was like normal juice
mine was orange
but after drinking, dere;s a slight taste of alcohol
i drank one bottle without problems
other ppl face red and a bit dizzy
but i wasn't ^^
den we played true or dare
yi hao gt dared
so we dared him to go to a lampost and...
hump it
u noe, like having sex
it was damn funny lah!
den we dare justina to go boys toilet
she was like no prob lah
but it was funny enough
it was alr 11+ liao
den see weiying going home
her mum, sister and cousin was dere
so ask whether could giv me a ride
den me and yi chen had a ride homw
hw shiok!
dat night, sleeping was a bliss

nxt day(yesterday)
woke up at ard 9+
a bit tired but couldn't get back to slpp
den receive msg
say later go eat sakae sushi with
joel, cheryl, yvonne and niki
it was going to 1pm when we finally eat
after satisfying meal
go eat haagen daz ice cream ^^
haha, den meet up with
jaf zel, mei wah, mabel and koon hiang go bugis
joke all the way dere
damn fun
reach bugis liao den started walking ard
go to shops, see see look look
keep joking ard
laughter everywhere
den joel bought this $51.50 puzzle
it was a hospital damn funny
the chracters are all doing smth which is very funny
but after dat, he no money liao
lol, den he realize he can only start to piece it together
after he moved to his new house... nxt yr
so meanwhile, it would hav to collect dust.
roflmao
den when to kinokuniya
bought one book
den go take neoprint
the $11 machine was ok and it was funny
but the $8 machin SUX BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!
den go starbucks
hav a drink den go home
had a really fun day

so today, i muz try to finish all my hmwk:
eng compo
chi duno wad
sci wksh
maths algebra booklet
geog wksh

gtg bb!

sniff sniff

2007-03-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

haiz
so sad
a perfect day ending like dat
at first morning wake up
on hp den immediately msg
weiying: wad time our remedial
me: 9, sry, juz woke up
weiying: i juz opp ur blk
i was like wtf?!?
me: mac?
weiying: no, directly opp
me: oh. bustop
weiying: waiting for xiao yun den go mac
so after dat, bathe and stuff go mac
den eat, my aunt sit beside us
den tok abit, blahz
go sch, den cher let us go buy breakfast
we go 7-eleven
haha, take so long
spent nearly one hour
roflmao
den the 3 hrs of maths remedial begins
1 pile of wksh
quite enjoyable though
gt frens, crackers and drinks and music
den later go Gamers Inc. (lan centre)
den play for 4 hours
den funny
but i nvr play
see yichen kena own
damn fun
last 30 min call ming de let me play
den at iceworld me and wee ming versus himand roger
dey kena own
:D :D :D
haha

nw the sad part.... :'(
i reach home dad nt in gd mood
affects everyone
mum was like quiet quiet
den ask her wad happen
say my dad is juz frustrated over work and blahs
den say try to tok more to him
tried but tok liao only one word response or no response
den after dat
watch hana kimi
den he say wad, keep watching tv
hello?
i everyday watch tv 1 hour for dat show only?!?!
den after dat i wanna do hmwk
den he call me
give me lecture
say i muz do better
revise more blahs
say my maths common test such atrocious marks
den say even if 10 min giv me, i oso won gian much marks
den i go back wanna do hmwk
den mum come in say muz go tok with dad
say muz let him noe verything
don leave anymore doubts
in the end, even worse
i giv a little excuse he retort
haiz, i say i alr revise all the time
when i revise he nvr see
den i say i alr quite stress liao
den he say can relax de, he dun care
den he say wad i wanna do juz go ahead lah, he dun care
den i juz leave, angry and crying
my mum comfort me
say is actually he hav my welfare at heart
say i need do better
but he doesn't hav to giv the attitude
juz cos he bad mood wad
the way he tok hurts ppl u noe?

haiz, wad the heck lah
wait till he better first
gtg, bb

I'm back...

2007-03-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!
i'm back again
aren't ya guys happy?
.......................................
ok...fine....
quite disappoingting though my results
maths: 25.5/50
chem: 11/25
phy:11/25
geog: 20.5/34
ss: 21/32
chi: 88/100
maths is because no time to do finish
invigilator came late and ended test 10 minutes earlier
but i dun blame her too much too
we shld prepare ourselves b4 she came in
more time was wasted u see
and oso i did nt manage my time well
and i panicked noeing i've very little time left
so quite a lot of careless
my sci... well... more hard work and effort i guess
Hard work nvr kill anyone
have to endure now and enjoy later
so ya... I"LL WORK HARD!!!

damn, my wireless keyboard spoil
now gotta use my old keyboard
WIRED one okay....
and the buttons were stiff
*frowns*
anyways, this hol is nt gonna be all fun
i hav to complete tons of hol assignments
tuition hmwk
study for maths and geog tests
and on top of dat...
i've to complete my F&N Research and Development
BY TODAY!!!!!!
but i send and e-mail saying i need 1 more day
seriously lah
i do until my eyes pain and i'm very tired
argh, gotta finish by tml ><
and do a bit of my hmwk
tuition on wed some more
tue gt maths remedial
wed gt class bbq
thu might hav some programme
oh well.
i guess this is sec 4 life huh?
time to get use to it loh
no more fun and games
find it weird dat every yr
i look back and say
hey! last yr was much more relaxing
and dat yr, i would be complaining
haha, dat's life i guess

well, signing off now
until then, later...

My very long post...

2007-03-05T04:25:00.000+08:00

haha, i'm finally blogging!!!

whr to begin? so many to say

i'll start with after CNY

lots of rewards! first day gt lion dance!

haha! and den all my relatives come

giv ang pao!!!
wheee, and played dai dee(tai dee)

i won ard 90 cents only T_T

lols, 2nd day went to malaysia

take more ang paos ^^

but is RM leh...

den play some firecrackers...

this wan flies up to the sky with a loud noice

den *boom!* explodes

lol... play more kinds

very satisfying, nxt time go muz play somemore

den 3rd day went aunt house

play mahjong lose $2+ T__T

wtf!?! so sad man...

den duno when go aunt house again

go eat steamboat ^^

den past few days gt lots of common test

geog and ss- duno whether can pass

maths- idiot! invigilator start test late ended early

freaking angry! no one manage to finish the paper

can score wan leh... @$#%#@$^#%(*#

dun wan say liao, freaking pissed off

chi test- no kick! =p

den duno which day pray again

pray to the emperor of the gods

very extravagant:

yup, that's abt it!

pretty cool huh?

haha, den on friday, went to watch netball

'B' division finals

against Tanjong Katong Girls

the whole place was filled with supporters

with lots of screaming going ard

den there were cheers

at first damai lead 16-09

den lost to ard 19-23

den finally, at the last minute, fought back

final score: damai won! 25-24

YEAH!!!!!!

damai supporters roar

and went: ole~ole~ole~!!!

haha, congrats damai team

and to my fellow netball classmate:

FADHLINA!!! well done!

okok, den yesterday i went out with parents

and their frens

we went to changi airport

feels like we were going overseas

lols, we went there to eat Fish & CO.

to celebrate someone's birthday

after a delicious meal went to another foodcourt

den they still ate a little more

i was like: .... omfg....

den took out small cake and ate the cake

dat's abt it

to all readers:

i'll blog maybe after quite sometime

sry, will be very busy this yr

O lvl mah...

BB!

Stopping by...

2007-03-02T03:46:00.000+08:00

ok, gotta make this quick
having F&N lesson now
i cant post this few days
tests and very busy
will blog soon with photos
haha, teacher very noisy
BB!

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

2007-02-19T13:33:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!!
it's new yr!
this means $$$
woots!!!!
cmon lah, who dun wan $$$
okok, i stayed up past midnight
this is "shou shui" which will let ur parents
hav a longer life
and i very tired today
lion dance came at between 9-10am
lala, this yr very long, 10 min++
dad say maybe nxt yr will nt hav lion dance
T_T
nvm, den relatives started pouring in
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
=P
haha, den chatted, play games
play "ban lak" and won 90 cents!
wheeeeee!
blahs...
den juz came back frm 3rd aunt house
played mahjong without $$$
had fun though
zzzz
nth much to say
very tired now

TO ALL:
wishing u guys a great yr ahead!
achieve great results in studies!
healthy all yr long!
$$$ keeps rolling in!
etc etc.
BB!!!!

I'm happy and tired

2007-02-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

it is valentines day
hav common test, wad a spoiler

To all lovery dovey couples:
May ur life be filled with love
May u enjoy all the time u hav with him/her
May ur love river flows eternally
May your future be sweet always
etc etc....

RIGHT...

Wad i was thinking:
MAY ALL U COUPLES DIE MAN!!
WAHAHAHA!
PISS ME OFF MAN
YES I AM JEALOUS
U LUCKY IDIOTS
KISSING ALL ARD WITH UR PRESENTS AND ALL
UR LETTERS AND ALL THE ATTENTION
DIE DIE DIE!!!
ok, dat was exaggerating
but it was mostly correct =.=

To all singles and loners (like me):
hav a really gd time... with urself
be jealous...
do nt curse couples...
do nt tear their letters...
do nt destroy their gifts...
and pray u get a stead soon...

LALALA, i dun care!?!

CNY coming lah, dun giv a damn abt
stupid valentine with couples all ard =p
CNY earn $$$
valentine $$$ fly away
CNY buy new things for urself
valentine buy thing for others
CNY celebrate with many ppl
valentine with one person
CNY spend parents $$$
valentine spend saved $$$ frm parents
etc etc

STUPID SS COMMON TEST!!!!
no mood to study lah
knnbccb
RAWRRR!!!!
anyways, gonna get a new pair of specs
hopefully can get back on thu night or fri night
here's the specs:

wheeeee!!! ^^

go slpp le

nitez!!!!

Determined...

2007-02-10T06:19:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,
I, Xavier Ong, is determined and will get
at a 10-14 for my 'O' levels
i from this day onwards will study hard
i will lessen down all my entertainment
please be my witnesses

i've written this as after seeing the release
of the results yesterday made me think
i've witness the horror, the joy and the sorrow
it's indeed shocking and cause the sec 4s dere
to 'wake up' and think
we hav little time left
we must be ready for our o levels
the good results dat they have attained is
not built overnight
they hav studied so hard for a few months
they endured all the pressure and forgo
all entertainments
i'll rather be getting congradulated
than getting consoled nxt yr
it's time to study hard
we cant afford to play anymore
this year is critical to our lives
yes, our lives, as it determines our road
frm den on
so y nt study hard like hell
and enjoy it later like in heaven

bottom line is:
i'll study hard
get 10-14
i'm serious

F***ing angry lah!!! RAWR!!!

2007-02-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

KNNBCCB!!!
f***ing angry lah!!!
RAWRR!!!
damn bastard!
u think u big izit?!?
tok cock nia...
u sec 3 ok...
think so big
wad Poh Jie Hao izit.
name wrong i care?!?
u f***ing bastard
so long as i'm in damai, u won hav a gd time arh
freaking idiot
since sec 1 see u nt happy liao
i at canteen after sch at 3rd stall
joel in front
i behind him and bastard behind me
den joel move forward, i wanted to move
den dat arsehole use finger push my shoulder
i shrug it off angrily
giv him du lan face
he say: can move right?!?
i was thinking, like wtf!? i moveing right?!?
dat idiot, i noe he wan make trouble
den his frens ask: u noe him arh?
den he say: during sec 1 he kpkb wan lor
i tiam tiam, cos councillor confirm will kp mah
den he dun wan to stop
joel left, nxt my turn
den dat bastard cut queue, form 3rd row
wanted order
i put my hand in front, bending down
i called out my order
he keep pushing me and casuse my ass to shake (NOT FUNNY)
den keep saying: aiyo, councillor sexy wor.. etc.
den i more and more angry liao, i push him on the pillar
with one hand, den shouted at him
i duno wad i shouted lah
i was too angry too rmbr liao
den whole canteen ppl look at me
at dat time dun giv a damn
now think liao a bit pai seh
LOL
dat guy still think he so hero
laugh laugh like dat
if u gt gang think i scared
i injured at most u kena trouble in the end
forget it man...
den jun jie come, say wad dat guy do
i was with haniffa and this was much later
he long gone liao
den i dun wan repeat, he say i shld nt shout
muz turn ard, use finger call him and all his frens
i LOL'D, like gang like dat
HAHA!
den go councillor room, badge making machin ok liao
den joel's "lecture" on planning for events to the sec 3 councillors
den today do mind-map on tourism with mahjong paper
nt kidding u, i learn real mind=map, really works
do it on geog
ok, gtg, tired le, bb

Cool blog skin!!!

2007-02-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

Finally i got a better skin!
Blog skin i mean... Chio right!?!
waaaa, hw shiok!
anyways, these few day extreme sian
nth to do lor
everyday same thing
still zombie
den finally today study
FINALLY man!!! woots!
haha, been having loads of fun in class
mocking ppl, mocking teachers =p
wahaha, den the teacher oso sad la...
PE today damn tiring
CHER!!! torturing us arh!?!
den chem today freaking heng sia
my test i juz pass sia!
hahas, den POA teacher nvr come again
funny lehs, always like dat wan
she very gd the lor
one time, everybody listen to music with both
earphones, she juz go and say:
u all can hear me arh?
we say: yar... music nt loud mah...
she juz stands dere and salutes suddenly
ROFLMAO
den geog test i pass
chi i pass
blahs
BLOODY F&N COURSEWORK!!!
freaking du lan lah!
our teacher tell us do in dat manner
den today study hour another teacher, who is better
call us do another way
we all see liao, she teacher better lor
den she explain we all clearer liao
nt like our F&N teacher
waaa, sian lah! i HATE Coursework
RAWRRR!!!
our class notice board behind quite chio, can go see
gtg, bb

Farewell party for Mrs Chen

2007-01-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!

i had a really great day today.

went to joel's house dere, use function room

for mrs chen's farewell pary

she is nt in charge of the council anymore

actually having a party is a bit exaggerating

but it happened anyway... -.-

so woke up and stuff, reach bedok inter

ard 9.45 saw a couple of ppl

den went ntuc to buy stuff

reach joel's house, started to decorate

balloons, music, and all the arragements

ppl arrive ard 12.30

had food, many many pizzas

ard 10 boxes and plus many other small ones

which contains the potato wedges

and chicken wings!!! and also pepsi

OMFG!!! was stuffed man...

had fun with games and everything

mrs chen arrive and soon mr poon

mrs chen brought her daughter!!!

sooooooo cute!

haha, had many fun games and at last

cutting a cake...

den went up to joel's house

watch borat ard 5 min

parent's came home =.=

decided to change location

come MY house juz to watch it

=.= -.-

nvm, nvm, more ppl better

at least nt so boring

really tired now, bb

SO SIAN!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-25T14:20:00.000+08:00

hello!!! it's been extremely long since i've last blogged. i dun feel like blogging on the sec 1 camp anymore. the 2nd day was mostly games. W1 did fairly. they did the best at water tower. why? cos i promised them if they play it well, they get to splash water at me. so i pissed them off by keep splashing water at them. and omfg, they really did well. dang. die liao le. i ran ard trying to avoid. in the end, i still get a whole pail over me and i was soaked throughly. SERIOUS!!! right to my und... u get the point. after dat was me drying off and them thinking abt expression nite. they wouldn't come up with an idea. in the end, i used some crappy ideas for last yr's AKLTG councillor's camp. it was devastating but the real performance was alrite. the 3rd day is cleaning up and withoput a proper good bye, they left. now most sec 1s still say hi to us. some unfortunate councillors get stalkers. they are: austin(fairly scary), joel (quite scary), and brian (extremely freaky). Only brian get two boys. joel and austin got girls. OMFG!!!!!

Sec 4 is so boring. study study study study. teachers keep saying o-lvl do well.... blah blah blah, yak yak yak.... wadeva, like we duno. hmwk more frequent liao, i think the tests and revisions will start to pour in soon. i duno y i dun feel the stree yet! i wan to study! i dun wan to be lazy!!! haiz, my biggest headache is my F&N coursework. tedious and demanding!!! argh!!!!!!!!! aiya,nth to say lah, gt to do coursework. motha farking thing.... @$!@%^&%*(@#^&^(

Haiz

2007-01-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

Gonna make this quick...
i'm not in the mood, and a bit sad
i've done a new quiz juz to satisfy u fans
lol
so yar, been doing great lately
might nt update on camp
see how first
wanna do my quiz juz click at the link
it's a new wan, so ya...
ok, blahs, bb

Out of clutter, find simplicity. From discord, find harmony. In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.

Shiok arhx!!!

2007-01-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I'M BACK FRM THE CAMP!!! YEAH!!!!! hahas, i hav loads to write so i think i juz write day by day... please stay tune! lol

DAY ONE:

I woke up early in the morning with my head buzzing. i created cheers the previous night. and also planned my expression nite. i reached sch ard 6.40+... saw the sec 1s alr at the canteen. so went to the councillor room to put stuff. waited for some time b4 we were briefed. den went to the hall, to arrange the sec 1s in their houses. den some of us were to go down to the canteen, to get them up. after a long time, everything is done. den id uno wad happen, den intro sec 1s to main leaders of camp, den sort into houses. i was still pretty stoned and was very quiet. so i get the W1 the group i in charge, to put their bags into a classroom. after i led them back, the hall became a "battlefield". victors and strivers were cheering hard. their leaders were shouting and shouting. i see liao buay song (nt happy), so the winners leaders quickly taught them the oi response. slowly, we got them warmed up, and they can respond to us pretty well. soon, it was time for the CCA aptitude tests. i gathered W1 with me and took them to their first station: Drama at the AV theatre.

WTF!?! drama the first, die liao lor, i in drama later my frens all laugh. so when i reach the 4th storey, i saw no one dere, the AV theatre was locked too, so i took W1 to the back, and taught them some cheers. SUPER SOLID, BANANA DANCE, den get to interact with them, noe them better. very naughty alr, always running abt! cannot get them in order. when it's time to tok and cheer loudly, they diam diam, muz keep pushing, encouraging, den they can giv the leaders an average response. for W1, the leaders are: me, wei shan, hannah and xiu ting. so all of us gt to noe each other even better through this camp. after awhile, teacher came and did wadeva they are doing outside AV theatre. den when we were done, dey open the AV theatre! @$#^$^*$^%@$%@^#&$*$%&# nvm nvm.... so went to dance room for alittle dancing. waited for awhile for W2 to finish. i told them i was frm drama, dey dun believe. but soon, after day 2, they started believing. y? juz stay tune.... once i see the dance studio, shoes outside the room, i knew wad was coming. so as i brought the sec 1s in, i prepared myself. luckily, the stench wasn't really bad. we were the 2nd group. hahas, so they went on with it... dance dance dance, den jake tell me we are late liao, i say wait. so finally ok, we went to the field. the gorls went for netball, the guys went to softball. den giv them a break and the girls stay a side while the boys went for rugby. i taught the girls the W-I-NN-E-R-S winners cheer. (duno nvm...) so after teaching the girls, i told them: i believe that u all can do better den the boys (i thought...) so show me dat u can do better and cheer loudly! yeah! dey cheer loudly!!!! ur head arh!!! this in nt fairy tale man, i was disappointed. (i thought wrong XD) some of them cheered softly with hands nt moving, some dun bother, some cheer okok. mostly is i teach cheers as i'm more familiar. so after awhile, i call the other leaders take over. still the same... gave up on the girls lah.... den went to the hall. the girls went for canoeing, the guys went to band. i was shock as canoeing became girls sport, then later i noe guys went for dragon boating. so after the guys went for band, they waited as there were no dragon boating. so the girls went band, and with the little amount of boys i had, with lots of energy in them, i taught them the same cheer. surprise surprise, the did very loudly. this cheered me up more. den other groups started cheering. A1 or A2, with boys and girls did the oi loudly. so with the guys only, i told the to shout loudly. they won the achievers. HAHAHA!!! OMFG!!! so when finally boys and girls are together, we met up with W2. all of us were waiting for choir. vanessa came and intro herself. cheer a bit den sian.broke up with W1 and cont with everything. den lunch time freaking noisy!!! ><>< href="mailto:$@#$$">$@#$$^ den tour the sch. tell them the spooky parts. and keep telling them how scary. haha, to prepare them for night walk. make them scared. this yr sec 1s very lame and timid. and they love to be noisy and act brave... WTF!?! night walk me and kai yan stay at D&T block the stair case dere. the shower room outside. direct the sec 1s to canteen. some scared like shit. some brave, or act brave. some screamed cos SOME PPL scared them... haha, oops, i fogot shower and dinner. shower is as bad as ever. maybe worse. cos i didn't go near the toilets... dinner was juz as bad as lunch... dat's a bt it for day one... STAY TUNED

A perfect day which ended like shit...

2006-12-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

hello!
yesterday was lame yet funny!
at first i dun hav to go sch
but later was called down cos they wanted all ex-co members
wth hell, oh nvm..
go dere a bit early, waited awhile
den 9+ haikal tell the ppl in charge of games
during sec 1 orientation camp
brief them
for ard 5-10 min
DISMISS!
wtf!?!?
u call all ex-co for wad use?!?
den he said need buy thing for games
so we fooled ard, taking pics and drawing nonsense
HAHA
in the end, went coffee shop makan
den went ard buying stuff
the area behind sheng shiong very nice
peaceful with a gentle breeze
very very nice
the weather was perfect yesterday
den went back to councillor room
bought chips!
haha, den more joke and fooling ard
laugh until stomach hurts
until today a bit cramp
LOL
den SMTH HAPPEN
confidential cannot say
councillor stuff
unless u are worthy of knowing den i can tell
like nosey ppl:
haniffa
ya, those kind...
LOL
tml tuition gotta learn more magic card tricks
den sec 1 camp can use
muhaha
until den, bb

Rain, rain, rain

2006-12-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

WAH LAU EH!!!!
STOP RAINING!!!
everyday rain rain rain! sian arh!
the mood like immediately dampen
go everywhere oso lazy...
yesterday went to Marine Parade Library
do chi proj with wei ying and xiao yun
they need eng to chi translator
LOL!
dey go overseas den tok tok tok
then girl stuff, tok tok tok
den gossip, tok tok tok
i over dere bo pian
diam diam, LOL
thx for the mini presents xiao yun, lol
it was raining one whole day
after doing a few things, we ate at the cafe
ordered this disgusting thing
like spaghetti fillings in a crust of the curry puff
yux!
den got honey glazed wings...
and the mushy spaghetti
mushy?
i ask xiao yun, den she say:
cos u hear
(use fork to move spaghetti ard)
den gt the sick squishy sound
disturbing....
enough said...
den xiao yun umbrella kena stolen
ROFLMAO
ok, nt funny
she's pissed off
den went home dat time smth funny happen
but i swore i cant say...
dang, spoiler... =X

today went for games try out
for the sec 1 camp
really bad
the games were bad and boring
no, Operation Guardian Angel was nt bad
but the ppl playing it were.... nt enthu
in the end morn drag until 1pm++
den go pizza hut eat, delish!
go safra for archery
dun feel like playing,
den home!
go tuition, den tuition teacher teach me tricks
magic card tricks
damn cool
david blaine those kind
he bend a card, put in middle of deck
hold it and snaps finger
immediately u see the card at the top
WTF!?!?!
he only uses one hand and i did nt
take my eyes off it
den he taught me a few, trying now
nt really gd lah
i wan buy new deck
bicycle brand
better and smoother
but ard $8++
wtf, i shall sacrifice and bring joy during sec 1 camp
muhahahaha
ok, gtg
nitez and bb

CHRISTMAS!!!

2006-12-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

Although it's nt snowing, it's cold enough
it's 12.00am now
ppl shld be receiving sms frm me
i tag, post and sms now
ignore the time at the top
it's inaccurate
i dunno how to change
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
haha
hope everything would be better in the new yr
HOOOO HOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
unfortunately, the timing did nt work quite right.
anyways!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Tis the season which is boring...

2006-12-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

Christmas coming soon!
dun really celebrate though
juz wanted the presents, muhahaha
dere's nth much these days
been to sch for sec 1 oreientation camp discussion
kinda long but wasn't as boring as i expected
jake kept fumbling with words
eg: u cant sleep and bathe in the classroom
ROFL
and joel's drawing of the route of the night walk
was a bit.... puzzling?
he was quite fast and it's hard to describe using a whiteboard
in the end, everyone manage to get it.
haniffa hav to use both hands
meaning, when joel say down the stairs, turn right
his face screw up in concentration and his hands move right
kinda like a robot dancing
XDXDXD
the nxt day was sec 1 registration
see all the new faces coming to damai
haha, told joel dat we shld put make-up
make ourselves over-worked
draw black eyes, and scars and put the stubbles at our chin
like too much sch work
den go up to the parents and say faintly
"dun...come..danger...leave immediately..."
HAHAHA!
oh ya, went to watch Night At The Museum
haha, Ben Stiller is still as funny
although the jokes were ok, and nt really funny
some were lame, when u are in the theatre,
the atmosphere was so great dat i was laughing and laughing
till my stomach hurts
i'm nt those who sit down dere, and smile, and say
this lame, that lame
to me, enjoying is the best
unless the movie is really goddamn bad
haha

hmwk progress hasn't been good
left a couple of wksh
and tml, christmas eve, i hav a test
MATHS! for tuition..
T___T nice present -.-
haven even go through a thing yet
HARD GAY IS FEATURED IN LIME MAGAZINE!!!
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
HARD GAY ROX!!!
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
i wanna buy the HG toy!
but quite ex
heard it's ard $50-60+++
nvm, see how first
thx joel and niki for christmas cards
i dun really celebrate christmas,
so dun expect presents and cards frm me...
but i'll be glad to RECEIVE them
HAHAHA!!!
okok, gtg, bb

Ssch gonna re-open...

2006-12-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

hey, wassup! been a long time since i've blog.
RMBR TO TAG ME AFTER READING!!!
decided to pluck my lazy ass frm the bed and start blogging.
well, oso, my hmwk pile is getting lesser.
BUT IT'S STILL DERE!
lols.
so anyways, nth going on exciting ard here.
i expect this post is gonna be short. i duno...
u lucky idiots going holidays while all i went is some wedding in malaysia..
go dere eat, say hello, blah blah, go home...zzz...
den ppl go GENTING, CHINA, VIETNAM, EUROPE,
NEW ZEALNAD, KOREA, AUSTRALIA...
waaa!!! *JEALOUS* *ENVIOUS*
nvm, the day would soon come...
when i could go overseas yearly again...
parents been really busy with work. i dun mind.
dey busy, earn more money,
den presents and treats would be those very gd wans.
eg: hp, com, more outings, more this more that, can buy more things...
i shall stop nagging... haha, mother's genes? =X.
been listening to CDs, watching the DVDs again and again
until i noe wad is gonna happen nxt and wad ppl are going to say.
Westlife's song are really good... when u r going to slpp!
LOL.
for example, You Are So Beautiful (To Me).
old song but they re-sang it. pretty nice lah.
but keep singing dat phrase only.

Beauty, it makes me think.
wad is beauty?
oh, so u are handsome den other,
u more chio, u more cool..so wad?
beauty is only skin deep.
oh, so u go marry damn ugly ppl and (sry to say) hav a damn sad life forever?
NO! to me, the features, okok will do.
BUT!!! wad matters the most is the inside.
beauty, nt only to girls, is to have a compassionate heart,
to be kind, helpful, generous and to hav passion to do things.
to hav faith and everything in wadeva u do.
i read the newspaper everyday and all the time i see
is country nt happy with country, wars, fightings,
murder, rape and den today, saw in the chi newspaper.
A chinese man, some Taiwanese or wadeva lah,
bring his old mum, damn old, to some European country
or somewhere in the west. and dat (pardon me) shitty sonafabitch,
marthafocker, shitbag, damn idiot, asshole, abandoned her dere!?!?!
leave her on the streets to die!!!!
the pic shows a old grandma's back facing the cam,
den she is sitting on a damn old mat, at the side of the street.
how can dere be this kinda things!?!
damn the man! curse him!
RAWRRR!!!
beauty, i believe, is totally the opposite of wad that man did!
y bother having all the $$$$ in the world,
having good looks and stuff, but in the end,
u are still some stuck-up shitbag.
nobody respects u. they fear u. f
ear and respect is totally diff.
respect hav to be gained.
and respect is someone seeing u as someone
who is worth his or her attention without any force.
fear need nt be gain. juz go some area, show off, scold.
u get fear. fear can be easily gotten. but fear is nt pleasant.
ppl do wad u told them is becos of fear. they do cos they hav to.
or nt they will hav to be punished/yelled at/etc.
So beauty is important.
without it, ur life would be unpleasant and nt enjoyable.
hahas, it turn out to be kinda long...lols.
rmbr to leave a comment after seeing this in my tagboard. thx.
i gtg, bb, nitez

HMWK!!! ARGH!!!

2006-12-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

frm bedok reservoir
Xavier Ong!
ok, lame, frm Hard Gay
NT PORN!
it's a comdian for those who didn't noe
aiya, help me!!!
hmwk, is haunting me day and night
the pile is still dere
T_____T
everyday i see my com
den will play
if nvr play, go online den ppl tok to me
tok until i no mood do thing
>< >< >< ><
i wann concentrate by TML!!!
muz chiong finish all by christmas
my target =D
i dun think will lor
-.-
anyways, nth interesting lately
either this or i lazy to put here
bought Westlife's new CD
The Rose
i'm surprised they could still sing so well
been a great supporter of them since
their 2nd album till dun when
den lost interest
when i heard the rose, listening to their lyrics
it was really great
here it is:

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,and you its only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been to long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong,
just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose.

touching...*sniff*
ok, it's 12:05 am now
gtg, tml to play!!!
hehehe
NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
do hmwk, ><
bb, nitez, sweet dreamz
and to all lovers, cherish ur goddamn partner

HOMEWORK HAUNTS ME

2006-12-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

hello, again, very long time nvr blog
been really tired and busy
cant slpp until midnight den can
duno y, den morn 8-9+ wake up
cant get back to slpp
everyday play com
hmwk pile still staring at me
manage to do a little
den add somemore tuition wans
ARGH!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
nth much these days actually
been watching Asian Games
wahahaha
see the bodybuilders like
*vommits*
the muscles are like huge stones on their body
it's kinda sick
den ping-pong abt sad lah
but swimming got one gold in 24yrs of sgp history
woots
haha, having more meetings again
so sian, hols going to end
muz go out more
but hmwk nvr do finish
NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
chiong hmwk
i....muz...chiong...hmwk...
cant...play
*devil and angel pops beside*
devil: aiya, play a little won die lah
angel: look at the hmwk! so many!
devil: aiya! last minute do lor!
angel: nonono, quickly finish den can play
devil: wtf! can copy when sch reopens right?!?
angel: OI! do finish can play all u wan
devil: play!
angel: do hmwk!
devil: PLAY!!! PLAY!!! PLAY!!!
angel: DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
WTF!!! STOP IT LAH! IRRITATING!!!
ok, i do 1/3 everyday
den play
weekends no count
meeting days no count
ok?
*devil and angel disappears*
-___________________________-
oh wad the hell i'm doing!?!
aiya, go eat breakfast liao, bb

long time no see...

2006-12-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

hey!!!! long time no see!!!
hahas, lazy to blog lah...
hmm, i start on the sec 1 councillor camp
this yr's batch...ok lah
need to warm up more
still very quiet and stuff
had great fun ard my frens too
especially haniffa
who is the blue ogre of the day
ROFLMAO
nth much lah actually...
den on sat go jogging with joel and joseph
waaa #$%^TY&)(*&^%
too long nvr run liao
call me run one round
in the end tired like hell
everywhere pain... #$%^&*(_)(*&^%$#
yesterday went to malaysia ^^
go some relative's wedding..
see how it goes
normally in sgp, it's at night
but this is in the afternoon
so went there, say start at 2pm
in the end, drag till 3pm
knn, my stomach hungry like hell
den wait for the bride and bridesgroom to come in
sit
YEAH!!! eat!!!!
wth...the food all like some kopitiam stuff
no nice arrangements
is like anyhow cook and put on the plate
NAH! serve serve serve
den ppl at sgp, go wedding muz wear nice clothes right?
not dere...
they can wear shirt and short pants!
omfg...
den when they cannot finish a dish, ppl frm the
restaurant actually giv out plastic bags
for ppl to put the extras in it, and bring home
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!
and time to time, dere are those freaking old ppl
go on stage, sick those freaking old songs
with the bass so strong, i thought earthquake
den some females, sing so high pitch, the glass
like wanna break like dat
hahas, got one, sing until short circuit
ROFLMAO
haha, den she malu come down
oh, i think ppl juz go dere enjoy and drink beer and wine
martell, and red wine
sgp got jolly shandy (spl?)
dere oso hav, but dere is another brand call ANGLIA
it's the same too
with more than 1% alcohol content
den got lemonade smell
every table, kids frm ard 6 to 10 yrs old
were drinking dat
and dat sgp u hav to be like above 16 or smth..
i duno, unless u secretly bought lah =p
hahas, shiok!
i drank like abt more than 5 cans
woots!!!
keep going toilet XDXD
okok, dat's abt it, my hmwk pile..
ARGH!?!
no progress...
nvm, bb

BIRTHDAY

2006-11-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

ok, today's my bdae!
yea!
ok, wadeva
nth special lah
juz woke up feeling happy
and older
or shall i say mature?
nah... HAHA
hmm, i duno whether it's me or wad
i feel that each yr
as birthday is approaching
i dun feel the excitement
i dun count down
i juz dun feel anything!?!
y?!?!
i duno, maybe cos i grow up liao
today i juz called haniffa and joel
come my house hang out
watch ice age 2
XDXD
den joel play
haniffa and me see how "good" he is
XD jkjk
my mum ordered nuggets and fries frm macg for us
wheeee
shiok!
haha, juz like dat all the way to evening
dey go back
den dad say bring me go eat
but wouldn't tell me where
mum also dun wan say
so, sit in the car
den go tampines
???
den go further
Loyang??
den further...CHANGI
wad!?!?
bring me see ah-gua and eat coffee shop!?!
OMFG
my mood is like totally drop
argh!?!
how can!?!
den they parked the car and we got out
u noe the place where u sit boat go Pulau Ubin?
yup, at that area got one restaurant
den it's by the side of the "sea"
quite nice lah
place oso kinda cool
atmospher very nice
den ate some fabulous food
den stomach like wanna burst >.<
den got one cat keep looking at me
i cant stand it, so juz throw prawn shells
the cat immediately gobbled it up
so in the end, i kept throwing scraps and
unfinished food
i bet the cat has a lovely dinner too -.-
haha, anyways, my com after reformatting
everything resetted
and my lovely emoticons of msn...
ALL GONE!!!!
and my msn pics...
ALL GONE!!!
nvm nvm
oh, tml got sec 1 councillors (this yr sec 1) camp
so gonna hav fun
lastly, thx everyone for the birthday wishes
mum and dad for the lovely dinner
and haniffa for ur present
and haniffa and joel for coming my place today
so i'm 15
NT OLD... haha
so fast gonna be sec 4
still nt used getting called as a sec 4
ok, gtg, ciaos

NEW HANDPHONE! FINALLY!!!

2006-11-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

OOPS!
sorry guys, i take back my confirm + chop
haha, i got K800i in the end
more functions
and more masculine
seriosly lah
today morning woke up play game
damn raining
$%^&(*&^%#$%^
den see the pile of hmwk + tuition hmwk
on my table, i sian like ****
argh, i cant bring myself to do hmwk
with camps coming
and the planning of sec 1 orientation camp
where got mood do hmwk and study!?!?
ahaha
plus! today buy new hp
even worse
den the rain came and dampen my mood more
@#$%^&)(*&^%$
haha
after buying, go eat fish & co.
shiok!!!
my parents + me
we order seafood platter for one
and a New York fish & chips
woots!!!
oh, and one soup for the day: seafood chowder
and the mussel thing...
extremely delicious
now very tired but cannot slpp
the happiness hav nt subsided
i could always stare at the pile of hmwk...
WAD AM I THINKING!!!
NO!!!
better stop thinking of hmwk
later nightmare of hmwk chasing me -.-
now nt working liao, weekdays gonna be
SIANZ SIAN SIANZ
3 more days to bdae!!!
haha, i'm young!!!
now den bdae
haha
ppl who hav early bdae think they so big
my parents fren told me this
early ripe, early spoil die, like fruits
=X
ROFLMAO
haha
but i duno why yr after yr
bdae doesn't seem exciting
or worth looking forward anymore
maybe cos grow up liao
lesser celebrations
treated more like adult
lesser presents
got a few ang-pows
hehehe
haiz, bdae coming like normal day like dat
NO MOOD!
wad to do!?!?
aiya, no mood liao lah
bye!

Working life...

2006-11-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!

been a long time huh?

okok! because of all u loyal readers, i'll blog alrite?

been really busy and tired lately..

frm the 13th till 24th of this month,

i've been working

at KPMG singapore

it's an accounting firm

to be precise, auditing firm

auditing is when an auditor goes to other companies

check their tax and other a/c stuff

KPMG is located at the CBD

HONG LEONG FINANCE BUILDING

near Lau Pa Sat

good food

but i didn't eat it everyday lahs...will get sick >.<

there are many stores and hawkers ard dere

i'm so surprised! as i thought CBD is buildings

and more buildings! XDXD

been quite busy lah

8.30am muz report to 5.30pm

12.30pm-1.30pm lunch

wad i do is to use co's laptop,

sit in front of it the whole day

and do wadeva's thrown at me!

nah, dat's juz a crude way of saying it

like whoever needs help, i'll go

they'll teach me how to do, and i'll do it

so i keep doing until i'm good at it

i'm now very good at things liao

haha

it's not boring ok!!!

u learn things everydaym u joke at the office

it's very enjoyable

everyday, i get to see many things

my breakfast is always Burger King at Raffles inter

haha

aunty treat me very good

oh ya!

that day in the mrt

saw this fat guy in ard 40s to 50s

with gold chains and watches

chinese

when train come, everyone will move back to let ppl come out

BUT NO!

he squeeze his way to the front

den squeeze inside the train

after quite some time

he sneezed

with his hands covering

next, he see, den he held the handles with 2 hands

tightly!!! u noe, the cirle handle? ya...dat wan

den he take down his hands, look again

den hod back

den take down, look, and wipe onto his pants

and hold back!

ewwwwwwwwwwwww

sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick!!!!!

argh!?!

nvm, revolting! yucks!

eveyday is like more hectic and more zombie

if u're working

u get up

take bus go inter

take mrt

eat breakfast

work

lunch

work

go home

eat dinner

relax

slpp

next day...

but i'm nt complaining so far

although i working, i'll miss my com

and i'll think of my frens playing, hanging put, hav fun

haiz

if u were to compare working to schooling

i'll prefer schooling

y? every single kid says working better lah

everyday work, come back, eat, watch tv

we cannot do!

muz study... blahz...

but!

working, u're stressed every single day

u hav lesser freddom

u cant do stuff u wan

y stress everyday?

cos you gotta complete this by some date, you gotta

compete with you colleages... blahz

i truely noticed about the selfish ppl in S'pore

if you take bus, you see ppl not moving in

will it kill you juz to move in?!?

muz driver call and call arh?!?

@$%^&*&^%$

MRT oso, dun wan move it, den let everyone near the

door squeeze like hell. den BO can smell

X_X

Today is the last day of my work

it has been a great day

we even had a small farewell party

they bought chicken pie

the sote's name is: Don's

very nice! at upper cross street, i think

u oughta try!! muz!!!

and oso mango cake, from Royals

SIimply delicious!

*smacks lips*

mmmmmmmm

okok, it was quite emotional lah

last day liao, den nt coming back

said many goodbyes

den receive a few small gifts

OMFG!!! today i receive 2 surprises!

first thing in the morn when mum came back

she had a plastic bag

she call me guess wad's in it

she take out and open an album

it was full of notes!!!

ancient notes

malaya during 1930s-1940s

or sri lankan's

old australian's

extremely mint (meaning nice and clean)

old s'pore notes, hong kong one's

and and and AND!!!!

THE MOST, EXTREMELY, RARE

*drum roll*

BANANA NOTE!!!!!!

woots!

$10

mow duno worth $10000000 i duno

haha

the second surprise is, i doing tuition hmwk half way

tml tuition

den dad say

hey, tmldun go out

i sian liao

wah lau

sunday leh

*black face*

den he say, we going tm tml

buy u new hp

den i immediately 180 degrees change face

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

how shiok!!!!

i hugged him tightly

YEAHH!!!!!!!

at first wanna buy K800i

but according to wei ying the pgone "expert"

she advised not to

cos her sis saw many ppl go repair dat model

den call me compare with Z610i

den i go see

eh?

apart frm lesser quality cam and no infared

everything is either on par or better!!!!

confirm + chop i wan Z610i!!!

see dad wan or nt lor

I SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!!

cannot slpp liao

aiya, he announce den i no mood do hmwk liao

until now...haiz

tml confirm dio gan by tuition teacher

=.=

sianz!!!!

ok, gtg, bb!!!

*CLICK*Xavier

To her

2010

2010 soon

Grandfather

ADVANCED!!!

REGENERATION

A new change in life

6th Student Council

Turmoil

Life now...

Thoughts down the meandering lane...

Longest thank you note ever...

2009

A fresh beginning....

Retaining

My Return

Hectic week

Reflection

Laziness is a SIN

Explanation

I'M IN COUNCIL!!

It's been a long time...

Update on my life..

Notice

What my name means

SILENCE! I KEEL YOU!

MY RESULTS!!!

Boring day...

Tired...

End of 2007

December's ending soon..

LOL!

YAWN! bad slping habit

Angry? Nah, couldn't be bothered

Sixteen

Rant and Rave...

LONG TIME NO SEE!!!

HAHAHA! HILARIOUS! Shame to be in damai man...

Sick of Studying...

life upside down, inside out...

wad a day!

Wait for nxt post!

What's happening...

After MYE...

In school now...

Refreshed

EMO? NO!!!!

A new born...

Sick of this life...

Fun's over, now it's hmwk... T__T

*sniff sniff*

I'm back...

My very long post...

Stopping by...

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

I'm happy and tired

Determined...

F***ing angry lah!!! RAWR!!!

Cool blog skin!!!

Farewell party for Mrs Chen

SO SIAN!!!!!!!!!

Haiz

Shiok arhx!!!

A perfect day which ended like shit...

Rain, rain, rain

CHRISTMAS!!!

Tis the season which is boring...

Ssch gonna re-open...

HMWK!!! ARGH!!!

HOMEWORK HAUNTS ME

long time no see...

BIRTHDAY

NEW HANDPHONE! FINALLY!!!

Working life...

CLICKXavier

sniff sniff